To want to become a partial recluse - or is that odd ?

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Background: I'm 51, married, 3 teen DC, WFH full time.

I'm not agoraphobic (that I know of). Since lockdown, I enjoy and appreciate more and more time at home. I don't want to go out out - although I don't know if that's because I have put on weight/feel down/have realised that I'm starting to lose my looks/have anxiety looming over me for something else going on in my life right now which is longer term problem and a huge worry.

WIBU to want to just stay a home as much as I can ? I get food shopping delivered anyway. and always have done. I am not into clothes shopping and prefer to order on line. Lately, I find too many people too much eg. busy supermarkets and people dithering/walking so slow in the shop why they try to decide what to buy & people getting in my way annoy me. Lots of traffic on the road which makes me angry/cross/annoyed at taking soooo long to go anywhere & a 10 min journey turns into 30 mins. Queuing makes me annoyed. Shops being out of stock of what I want/need and my journey through the traffic and the busy shop has just been a waste of time. I just get soo frustrated with it all . Some examples:

Go to the shop during in advertised opening hours, to find the shop closed for lunch. There were no closed hours advertised in the day. Due to my own time constraints that day, I couldn't wait/go back for the shop when it re-opened. Journey to the shop was a waste of time.

Go to supermarket and join queue to pay. Told the queue is closing. I move to a different checkout, The one I was queuing at then re-opens and everyone at the back of my queue - who had only just joined my queue to pay - joins it.

Go to cash machine. 3 people in the queue - sigh - my turn and the machine has run out of cash. Other people in front of me have got cash out. Waste of time queuing.

Go to shop and pay using self-service checkout. It turns out that someone had already scanned 4 items at the check out I was using and then walked off/abandoned their shopping (but the shopping had been cleared away by the staff, although the till had not been cleared). I pay without realising, Notice the bill is £££. Check the receipt. Spot the error and then it takes another 20mins to refund/sort.

It's just all tooooo much

Same here not everyone but definatly enough that it's taking my valuable peace .I think for me & DH although we worked all through the lockdowns that time gave us the chance to really take stock .

OP, you just sound disproportionately cross about entirely normal minor irritations related to shopping. I can imagine getting irritated if you were very pressured for time AND all these happened on the same shopping trip, but it doesn’t sound like they did. Other forms of leaving the house are available, It’s not ‘stay at home’ or ‘go shopping’.

Also, maybe you should think about why you’re so angry? DH works away a lot, I am 50 and have a demanding new FT job, inadequate childcare for my young child, don’t drive so need to do grocery shopping on foot, and even then I’m not as angered as you seem to be, and I would describe myself as being fairly easily irritated.