I’ll try to keep it short. Until recently, I looked extremely young for my age. (For example: When I was 30, people regularly mistook me for my 31 year old sister’s daughter). It has, however, been a tough six years, with the death of my mum, an international move to a rather inhospitable place, two difficult pregnancies and parenting two small children with almost single-handedly. And it has aged me by years.
The colour and texture of my skin has changed (there are no wrinkles as such but the area around my eyes looks more hollow iykwim), and my hair is dry and thin. In short, I look fucking awful. The worst part is that I am now covered in freckles when I used to only have a few. I guess it’s the climate here, even though I wear sunscreen all the time. Normally I like freckles but on me I feel like they are very ageing because they make my skin look dull.
On a recent trip back to the UK I was ID’d buying a lottery ticket so perhaps I do still look young-ish for my age, but I certainly don’t look fresh and vital and healthy. I look tired and dull and grey.
Anyway, I’m so sad about how I look that I am seriously considering getting my freckles lasered off and then (if I still look terrible) getting Botox. My husband is angry about it - he says I’m delusional - but even if he is right that I don’t look as bad as I think, I am sick of feeling so shitty about my appearance and I want to fix it. I think he should respect that. Thoughts?
Sorry this ended up being longer than I wanted. Thank you if you got this far.