Secret confessions thread

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Okay, so, we all have these thoughts; things we know we DEFINITELY are being unreasonable about and yet we can't help but think them.

This is that thread. A chance to say whatever you want judgement free. You know it's silly, you know it makes no sense but it's how you feel. Feel free to share! It might make me feel a little less crazy.

I'll go first...

My best friend gave birth to twins today and I am INSANELY jealous. Simply because I want twins. I know it's stupid, I know I likely won't even have twins but I want them so badly and now she has them. I feel like she's stolen the twin dust and there will be none left for me!

Like I said - just somewhere to post how you're feeling consequence free

You're my favourite person of the year 😂

Your post made me laugh very hard. Such a great hobby, and so much potential...

Me too! Love an early morning dig-about.

I also like squeezing the gunk out of an old bellybutton piercing. Smells nice!

Basically love gross body-fluid stuff and have even been known to watch earwax removal vids on youtube.

I’ve known my best friend for 25 years and have thought about doing ALOT of sexual things with her since we were teenagers.

(I’m a straight woman happily married with kids)

I'm counting down the days until my biological father dies. Been NC for years (he was abusive) but I live in fear he will turn up at my house one day or I'll bump into him in the street. People try and tell me I might regret being NC when he's not around anymore but they will never understand what he put me through. I'll finally be able to relax the day I don't have to worry about it anymore.

This made me laugh when I saw your name, my late OH of the same name did exactly that!

@ToxicCuntMum Haha... I rely on autocorrect and it failed me! Stationary, yes standing still 🤣🤣

Bit late to the party but I have a couple if I may share?

The only reason I'm not NC with my Mum is because I'd miss my Dad. She's a manipulation queen who through lack of exercise and over eating has made herself disabled. She's lazy and a bully. I'm terrified of turning into her. I'm angry at my Dad for enabling her out of love cos it's fucked up both their children.

I appear on the outside to lead a quiet, unassuming life- divorced middle aged mum living with chronic pain and physical disability. Whilst true to an extent I'm so much more.... I'm okay with using a walking stick, it doesn't actually bother me that much. I also use weed every day- as pain relief and because I fucking want to. I grow it in my garden. I also have a DP who I have fabulous kinky sex with. You'd never think it to look at me.

Thank you. It really was a test of my ability to remember stuff I'll never use rather than my ability to do the job.

Which esteemed academic institution was it where you... studyed?

When I was little, about 5 or 6, I had a very hot swim instructor. We were allowed to jump off the diving board as a treat on Fridays. I would pretend to be afraid so he'd jump off with me. 🤭 I was braver as a kid than I am as an adult!

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I'm so sorry you're going through that hell.

I agree it's ridiculous that medical advancements mean we keep people alive long after they should be. It's barbaric, I dread my father becoming a vegetable in a chair (he's not far off this) and hate but totally understand his anger, frustration and fear over his situation is heartbreaking to watch.

It's so cruel, compounded by the fact that he will probably be kept alive at all costs - for what, to sit and vegetate, unable to feed himself or clean up after he has wet himself.

What's really bad? You haven't confessed anything! But I can see why you're hurt.

When my OH died very suddenly and very quickly the thought that he hadn't had a prolonged illness, especially dementia, gave me some comfort, if that makes any sense.

DH and I are millionaires and nobody knows. Family know we had a windfall but no idea how much. Not a huge amount has changed from the outside, but it feels amazing.
The big one will happen in about two years and I think then people will know.

Splendid

Sorry, do you mean you decided not to visit for weeks? I thought at first you meant they'd not invited you to visit for weeks, but I might have misinterpreted.

I still have my childhood imaginary friend I just stopped talking about him to other people so they think I grew out of it. He's a big part of my life and helps me to cope in many situations.

Yeah, I worked in residential settings myself for years.

People being kept alive at all costs isn’t right. Especially when they constantly express a desire
to end their own lives but are prevented from doing so.

My dad keeps telling staff he wants to die. The “solution” is anti depressants. He’s not depressed. In his lucid moment, he just knows what he’s in for next and it’s a living hell.

Existing isn’t the same as living and seeing him like this has only compounded my belief that I will be taking things into my own hands at a certain age or at diagnosis or if I feel myself slipping. I only hope that I catch myself in time.

I’m addicted to verruca removal videos on YouTube.

My DD and DH are not 'my world' or 'my life'. DH says that me and DD are his world and his life, but I can't reciprocate that feeling. Don't get me wrong, I love them to bits and they are massive parts of my life, but I also have a life outside of being a wife and mother.
I love my career - something I've worked very hard for and am proud to say it's my dream job!
I love running, exercise and healthy eating - although I haven't done much of this since I went back to work full time as, when I'm not working or spending time with DD, DH wants to spend all his time with me as he misses me when I'm at work all the time. DH also does the majority of the cooking, which means I can't log it on My Fitness Pal as he doesn't weigh ingredients or anything. He's also really bad for wanting 'savoury snacks' in the house at all times. He'll have a sandwich as a bloody snack at nighttime for crying out loud and then complains that he's fat and putting on weight - well duh!!!!
I love music, singing and playing the violin - DH and I have a shared interest in this (it's how we got together) and, as much as I try to incorporate it into our lives again, we always end up watching crappy TV and movies. I'm fed up of TV to be honest, but it's on all the bloody time!

I suspect I'm not the only teacher to do this but if we were doing some over-subscribed activity we would draw names to see who could take part but prior to the draw we would doctor the bucket, certain names never made it!

Some times I pretend to have a migraine and I lie in bed all day, wanking.

I love it.

Every 5 years or so I enjoy a summer re-reading Riders, Rivals and Polo.....

Love this. I get hard for inventive pranks that don't actually hurt anyone.

I am divorced and have been having an affair with a married man for 10 years. We go on holiday together sometimes. The sex is great. He is very affectionate. We talk and message daily. I don't want to him to leave his wife. Neither does he. Our setup suits us fine. I'm pretty sure that deep inside his wife knows about us, but prefers not to acknowledge it. His children are all grown ups. I really do think that had we not met, he would have left his wife because of the lack of affection in their marriage. He has met all of my children and grandchildren and most of my family and friends. I have never lied to anyone about the nature of our relationship. Judge away...