Struggling to hold on

[Lily2075]

Posting because I don't have anyone to talk to and having sat now for an hour crying on my own I need to talk to someone. I'm finding it increasingly difficult day by day to not want to end things. There is no point to my life I just exist either at a job I hate that I'm awful at or I'm at home alone. I'd really like to just not wake up tomorrow. Have been discharged from NHS mental health services. Not going to call samaritans, what's the point. Doesn't change anything.

Is there a crisis team that you could call? The Samaritans are at least someone to talk to.

Oh OP. I'm here for you. Could you say a little more about what is making you feel this way?

No, been discharged from nhs mental health services so don't have any contact numbers of anyone to call.

Can you ring an ambulance and get admitted? Please don't suffer alone like this

Is it possible to get sick leave from your GP so you don't have to go to work? That could give you a mental break. So sorry to hear how you're feeling

I’m listening. Well done for reaching out. Even though you’ve been discharged the crisis number for your local unit is for everyone. There is also the option of A&are to get help and make sure you are safe.

Hey
I was scrolling and came across your comment on hear and thought I would actually make and account! just to say that your not alone , life is really tough and it sometimes doesn't get easier , I am in a little rut and feel low myself but I am trying and think of the postives and things that make me happy , do more of those, life is precious , try and get some sleep , tomorrow is a new day xx

Is there anyone in real life who knows how you are feeling? Any friends or family members you could talk to.
What interests do you have outside of work? Do you go out at all? Are there any specific reasons that you feel like this?

There's just no meaning to my life at all. I hate my job and my life is spent either at this job I hate (but I can't do anything else for work) or at home on my own cooped up. I don't have any friends. I am frightened of dying and I can't decide which way is best to go but I'm more frightened of living any longer feeling like this.

That sounds really tough.

Do you have family nearby?

Can you get to the doctors and explain what you've said here. Maybe time off work and a chance to plan your next steps and a new job would help?

Hi op, I too have been feeling very crap and vulnerable recently, so I understand how you feel, as I have been wondering what's the point of it all! But these are feelings, they will come and go, they will pass, please be kind to yourself, and try and visualise the life you want - maybe reach out to a support group to try and get some help - I hope you are OK, sending love ❤️

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
We can see you're already getting some good advice from other Mumsnetters but just wanted to add some links to other organisations which haven't been mentioned yet, for example: Mental Health resources.
You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
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