Aibu to not be able to stop eating, feel like a total failure

[MisterRee]

Have been trying to lose weight my whole life for the past year and all I’ve done is gain weight!
found it incredibly hard after my 2nd child, I’m early 40’s now with 2 primary age kids.
I am probably 3 stone overweight I want to be. I feel so disappointed in myself but for some reason I can’t seem to control myself at times, I don’t eat terribly bad in the day but come the evening when kids are in bed, I just feel peckish and enjoy the feeling of being full up/ enjoy eating. This may sound greedy or ‘unreasonable’ to you and maybe it is but I don’t know how to get out of this mental rut.
ps. I have a bad knee so am scared to do strenuous cardio, however I do walk a lot so I’m not sedentary as such.

Private prescription from a pharmacy. Boots,Asda pharmacy etc. consultation with a doctor is conducted online

I have managed one slice of toast for breakfast, with 2 chunks given to the dog!!I used to LOVE breakfast so I'm shocked I am so full now. Feel stuffed!

Someone had a good tip about resisting for half hour in the shop and this helps me as I have to walk to the shop for a treat.

When I need to lose weight I make a deal with myself that I have to hit 10k steps first. I find if I do 10k for a days I dont like to miss a day! But lniwingni have to do it means I get out for a lunchtime walk and evening walk with the kids as I dont want to spend my whole evening out walking!

My other tip is to schedule a 9pm meal so you have something else to look forward to. I usually do cereal or toast.

I also plan an evening in a different space where I dont think about food, like going into the office with a craft project, playing on the computer or taking a bath x