My husband and I had decided to try IVF to conceive our second child (first was natural) due to our age, I am 40, he’s 50. We didn’t do much research before going into it, but he did it before with his ex wife without success (on which he blamed it on her because she refused to take things easy after the transfer). The journey started alright, but as the time goes on, I feel more and more resentful towards my husband. I felt that he was not emotionally and mentally supportive throughout the process (he was busy on his phone while I was recovering from the egg retrieval procedure and before my embryo transfer; he was complaining about the waiting time during the registration for the egg retrieval procedure and appear sulky thereafter; masturbating a few hours after I gave him oral pleasures for the 3rd time on that day). Just before the embryo transfer we had a big fight because I was fed up with him looking at his phone almost continuously. And the fight continued on the way home, on which I mentioned that I didn’t like what he did (masturbation right after we had oral sex). He said he would continue doing it although he knows it hurts me. We barely talk now, and we are in the stage of waiting to see if we get pregnant or not. I somehow feel he was being insensitive, immature and selfish, while my body has to do all the preparations to make this IVF successful. Since he was the only breadwinner, he pays for all the IVF expenses and he doesn’t forget to remind me about it during our fight.
I’m just feeling lonely, depressed and sad now. I don’t know what to do