Do you ever feel like your life is a piece of shit?

[FuckingShitLife]

Just posting for a vent because I know others have it worse but my anxiety and stress is killing me and I want to bury my head in the sand because of money/house problems but I fucking can’t because I’m the only one keeping everything together and I wish I had a parent who I could bury my head into their arms and just cry.

Not at the moment but I have in the past. It’s a cold and very lonely place to be.

Do you want to talk about it, OP? Do you think any of us could offer useful advice?

Didn't want to read and run. Hope you find some help. Have you contacted all your local charities? Churches too

I feel you. I’ve had panic attacks in the past where I cry for my mum. She’s been dead for nearly 20 years but in my lowest moments I still need her.

I hope you get your house and money worries sorted soon.

We are here for you OP. Don't give up x

Can we help? What is the problem?

I've felt similar recently OP.

I got a lot of.good support from here, and referred myself to talking therapies off the back of my thread.

I also realised I needed to write it down and see what I could control, what I couldn't but might be able to get help with, and what non issues I was adding onto myself that I could on reflection just let go of.

Do you have any support in RL?

I don’t have anyone. I’m Low and NC with my siblings.

The money and house issues are too complicated to explain. But I’m too scared to talk to a financial advisor incase we can’t be helped. I’ve booked appointments then cancelled because I’m afraid. I have a constant heavy feeling on my heart like a stone. I have no relief. The man is useless. He Can’t even fix a fucking broken tap; and this is what has triggered me today.

I have to sort out everything: car insurance, gas/electric, water, DIY, fixing broken things around the house, getting cars MOT’d or fixing them, kids, cleaning…endless list.
Our tap upstairs has no hot water for a week now, and I’ve tried everything to fix it. The man says he’s okay with cold water. Well that’s okay then isn’t it you cunt. Coz your fucking kids aren’t okay. Dickhead

I go to sleep with the heavy feeling on my heart and I wake up with it. Not knowing if we’ll be homeless in a couple of months. I wish someone could just even tell me it’ll be okay. I do believe in God, but really wish someone could physically hold me and tell me. Never missed my mum and dad this much before.

It WILL be OK. You have your head screwed on. Can you get rid of the useless deadweight of a partner. Whatever happens, you'll be better off far quicker without that constant invalidation and disrespect.

Ah god love you OP. You will be ok go and see the financial advisor and get rid of the deadwood.

Sending you OP. I do know exactly what you mean by just wanting a parent to hold you and tell you everything will be ok. But know this: you are even stronger than you realise. Hang in there and things will get better.

All the time. So sorry you feel the same, it is heartbreaking feeling that way everyday x

Ring your GP Monday. That sad sick heavy feeling is awful. Maybe some medication in the short term may help

Hugs OP I understand were you’re coming from I too organise the lot I’m worn out with it, he spends money like water. Always swapping between churches different smoking stuff weed 0h yes know exactly how you feel. Make those appointments no one will laugh and get as much help as you can. If he says why just say well you do nothing hugs lots 0f them.

Thanks for all your kind replies.

I’ve had a big cry. I’ve been reading that thread about nuns and I wish I could do that. Just runaway and not have to worry about anything.

Here listening. Sending a safe hug to you if that's ok. Vent away.x

@FuckingShitLife I hate the expression but are you me ?! I feel exactly the same, life is so bloody awful and stressful at the moment, my landlord is selling and we have nowhere to go, energy, food etc is costing me a fortune. I'm a single working mum desperate to keep my head above water, my job is changing, my dd has ASD. The one person who I could have turned to for a good cry and moan is my lovely mum but she has fucking end stage dementia. Life is bloody awful right now and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel.

Oh I am sorry OP. Yes I have felt like this and it is shit.

I think you should call the GP on Monday and talk about how to help with the anxiety - but more importantly I think you should contact the people CA and stepchange to get support in managing your financial situation. They’ll talk you through how to navigate things if it gets to a really rough patch, and once you realise it can be managed, it will be easier to deal with calling the FA.

Obviously the key thing is to face all this stuff and do it. But please get yourself support.

What to do with the useless bloke is one to deal with when your strength is back a bit.

just breathe op it helps.

Every.single.day. atm 😔

Not dealing with the money shit will make that knot in your tummy worse
Sorry that's it's down to you alone , to sort
Get through the weekend - try on Monday
In meantime, hug kids , eat chocolate
Throw said cold water at "man"
Give him cold tea or dinner. See how he likes cold.

I don't know what your financial problems are but I'm positive there just be help available. When I was deep in debt I contacted step change and it was bloody scary but they're so great. Please seek help. It will make you feel better.

As will throwing that man out of your house.

@FuckingShitLife hand hold to you
I feel the same someday every week there is some extra cost for something breaking.
Gas leak last week and same as you a broken tap but my dh not a handyman either and I had to sort a plumber.
My work cut my pay by €80 euros a week and said they made a mistake and want me to pay back over 2k. I have not responded to them they said I was been overpaid for my qualification I'm gutted as I'm working there 9 years.
I am just scrapping by as it was the day they done it my bank ac was overdrawn and I had cried on my way to work not knowing this was also going to happen they had no empathy for me at all said we all have problems.
Then they write 2 cheques for charity for 5k each to Unicef and Ukraine I know this is good but think it is more to save them tax and get praised as they never treat staff that nice.
Sorry for ranting on your thread
I wrote down all my direct debits and costs for the week and have really tightened everything.
Spent £5 on ice creams for kids today but I know I will regret that expense by next Wednesday when I have nothing in bank account.
Why is life so unfair

It's really tough when you are going through a period like this....I've been there twice. These things always look like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but there is, you just need to keep moving forward.....go the the FA, take the first step.