I feel very unwell. My son 2 has cancer. I feel very alone. I will have to go back to work soon as have used up most of my sick pay and need to keep a roof over our heads. The thing is I can’t imagine doing this right now. I have frequent thoughts and urges to end my life. I don’t deserve to live if my baby’s life is threatened. I have tried to speak to my gp about this and they only have econsult, the ability to make an appointment doesn’t exist and you are lucky if they ring you rather than give you a txt that you can not reply to. I do not feel that they understand the severity of my thoughts. I don’t know where to turn to. Has anyone any experience in this and what should I do? I have private medical insurance but from what I can tell I need a gp referral for a psychiatrist however seeing as I can not speak to one I don’t know how that would happen. Any advice anyone?????