How do I know if I'm depressed because I hate my job…

[Ste23321]

How do I know if I'm depressed because I hate my job or if I hate my job because I'm depressed?

The thought of going back tomorrow is causing my immense anxiety.

Good luck handing in your notice, OP. Don't give the HT's 'busyness' a second thought; SLT are not giving you any!

Thank you @boomshakalacka and @BobbinThreadbare123

boom your post gives be good that I might also one day work somewhere I enjoy!

*post gives me encouragement

Good luck, try not to over think it. Just let them know and the admin side will sort itself out. x

I hope today went ok @Ste23321

Solidarity, OP. Another soon-to-be-ex-teacher here and know exactly how you feel. There comes a point where your own mental health and wellbeing can't take a back seat any longer. Hope today went OK, I too am feeling so nervous about handing in my notice but feeling bolstered by your post.
Here's to a new life outside the classroom!

Update: I didn’t give my notice in yet. I keep thinking I have over a month till the deadline so want to dwell for a little longer. Today and yesterday was a mixture of things really. I have such dread about going in but when I’m actually there it’s fine. I suppose its because I go through the whole day busy, not even time for lunch. I think being at home I have more time to reflect.

I’m 50:50 right now regarding giving my notice in. Part of me wants to stay for the stable income and having a routine. Doing supply would also be a benefit as would give me time to think about my life and make changes. I’ve always worked and I think work sometimes gives me a distraction from other areas of my life which are not great. Maybe I do need to stop using work as an excuse to be depressed and just leave and spend a year figuring out what I want. There will always be a teaching job somewhere if I’ve made wrong decision.

Just found this and wondered what you did about handing in your notice OP?
I totally understand how you feel. I started a new job and I hate it. It's also at the school my girls go to and I'm desperate to leave but aware that I'll be there as a parent for years yet. I'm only a temp there til July but I'm not sure I can last that long... It seems like a lifetime. So many teachers feeling similar. Isn't it sad x