Tomorrow is my beloved grans funeral. We are traveling over an hour and a half by train to go as she lived quite far. I have DS who is almost 2.
I'm so stressed with what to do. The journey that was once a fun exciting journey is now gonna be masked with pain, yet everything about the journey is the same. Just not the most important bit. Usually it was happy hellos but now it's the final goodbye.
Also, with the travelling and service means DS will have been in his trolley for quite a while and he gets bored in his pram if he isnt moving and seeing the world go by, I also don't fancy the idea of him running round a crematorium. I'm standing right at the back near the door just incase of any toddler antics but that's breaking my heart to think I'd miss it because I'm walking DS round to calm him.
My gran was my 2nd mum and at this point I'm wondering shall I just not go.