I started a new job two months ago, there is a big quarterly meeting coming up with my department and my manager has told me that he wants me to present one of my projects to show the department what I've been working on.
I am in a complete panic, my first thought was to just hand in my notice on the spot. I know that sounds dramatic, but I have suffered with this my entire life. I managed to get better at presentations at university, but being in a professional environment with colleagues I barely know (we are still mainly WFH) is so terrifying. It will be the first big in-person meeting after COVID, so most of my department's first time meeting me will be when I'm standing at the front nervously giving a presentation, really not a good first impression.
I am really upset and anxious about this. Giving presentations was not part of the job description and it seemed like it would be a good job for someone who doesn't like giving presentations. I have never even been to one of these meetings to know the kind of tone and format they take.
I just think this job isn't for me, I can't do this kind of thing. It is been an issue my entire life, I can't just snap out of it.