Today my mum has had a bad turn.
She has advanced dementia but we have been relatively lucky so far, she recognised us, was pleased to see us, lost in her own world, wandering physically and mentally but generally comfortable, well-cared for without pain and rarely stressed or agitated.
She is declining and today I said out loud that I would rather her die than her condition deteriorate further and her suffer anguish. I have seen dementia where people become really distressed. There is no hope of cure or improvement.
My AIBU is whether it is unnatural to admit it and to feel guilty for feeling this way. I know many on here say they would support a dignified death but the idea of choosing that for someone other than oneself feels off kilter.