I'm about to go back to work after maternity leave and I'm quite anxious about it so I realise I'm prone to being oversensitive at the moment. However, this incident upset me and I'm trying to work out if I'm being unreasonable/irrational about it.
DP wanted to get pottery hand prints made using the hands of DSS and DS. However, when we got to the shop to do it my partner said he was thinking perhaps it made more sense to wait until we'd had another (final) child. I said we could always just have it done again if/when we have another child (we plan to start TTC again next year, but I don't want to count my chickens).
DP then said he'd have it done with his hand, DSS's hand, and DS's hand. I felt a bit taken aback that I wasn't being included but to be fair it wasn't my idea, and I wasn't paying for it, so at the time I didn't say anything and helped him choose colours for the glaze.
In hindsight I feel the man who took the prints was looking at me strangely as if he felt it was rather odd but that could be my imagination.
It was only as we left the shop that I started to feel really quite tearful and as if I was being excluded from the family - almost as if my only purpose was to produce children. I made a joke that I'd better have a daughter and get my hand print done with her, but it was one if those jokes where you're trying to make light of something that's actually troubled you.
AIBU to feel upset by this? I know I need to just bloody talk to him but trying to gain some rational perspective first!