I'm just feeling really really down. I'm still only young, I've got 2 kids. I feel so guilty thinking I haven't done enough for them, they are still so young but thinking about the past just stops me from wanting to do anything differently now. I hate who I have become, I never used to even raise my voice or get angry. I'm married and I feel my husband doesn't love me anymore even though he says he does. I've got problems with an eating disorder, I don't look after myself properly, I don't take pride in my appearance anymore and don't look after myself. Im only 25 but Ive made so many bad mistakes, some which I regret every day even though I know it's not going to change anything, but it's stopping me from moving forward in my life. I don't look forward to anything anymore, I'm hurting other people with my behaviour and it's affecting my children. I just don't want to be like this anymore and sometimes I feel like ending it all. I just want to feel happiness again and that I'm not alone ( I know I'm not but it feels like I am) I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so depressed, I'm suffering with an Ed and I just can't see a way out and I feel so horrible and guilty