10 week old baby and hyper 2 year old and I’m really struggling. DC1 has kept nursery place but has cut down to 3 short days a week. We had a fantastic PT nanny - part of the plan being she would continue to support PT through my leave from work. However she sadly had to leave for family reasons. I thought there was no need to look again at this stage with me being at home, but I’m finding it very difficult to manage as I have a lot of responsibilities at home which don’t work too well with kids in tow and no real family help (once every few months at best and act more as visiting guests) and a husband who works very long hours, soon to be 7 days a week for a period of time. To manage at the moment I have to get up at 5am, which is just wiping me out if I’ve not had a great night with the baby or if I’ve done 10-11 dream feed. DH does the late feed when he can and 1-2 of the night shifts a week but this uninterrupted night barely scratches the surface of the tiredness! This will also go away soon when he’s on 7 days a week. I’ll be on my own.
AIBU to get a proper nanny set up now, when I don’t actually go back to work until early next year? I’m torn between guilt for wanting to spend time with my small children while I can and exhaustion/frustration for myself. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to get someone to cover what I want as nannies not easy to come by round here...