I have lied to my husband (and other people) about something important to our family. A comparable situation: I walked out of my job and resigned in a strop. They won't accept retraction of resignation, and to be fair I don't want the job, so I told DH - and others- that I've been unfairly treated and sacked etc etc. The lies have kept coming.
DH is now trying to 'fix' the situation for me. The more he tries to fix things the more likely he is to find out the truth and he will leave me for sure. I have stopped the lies in their tracks. Told him I just want to forget the whole thing and move on, that the job was shit anyway etc etc. He's having none of it.
I know that if he doesn't find out in the next week he's unlikely to ever find out but at the moment I am living in constant anxiety that a mutual friend might text him whilst he's at work, or someone might knock on the front door with some personal belongings and it will all come out. I am constantly checking my phone.
I haven't eaten for 2 days through the stress of it. I can't come clean. I don't know how people live with long term lies, I feel like I just want to disappear 