TW - I was raped at 14, the bastard also raped me orally.
I'm male if not obvious from the username, have been on MN for years, my sex should make zero difference.
I had an oral laparoscopic procedure called an OGD&Endoscopic Ultrasound done four years ago and due to the previous trauma was given propofol sedation (it's the general anaesthetic component they use first to knock you out, milky white emulsion) and I woke up the procedure complete with no issues.
I needed an OGD (it's an endoscope threaded through the mouth into the stomach and first part of the duodenum) at the start of the year and called the department to be told that they'd give me midazolam/fentanyl sedation and that the dr would give me more than usual and just to mention it to them.
The dr could see I was super anxious, I explained my history (a triggering challenge in itself) and was told I'd be comfortable and "it wouldn't last long). It was a nightmare, I lay there completely frozen; and I have flashbacks both to the original assault and the procedure daily. He gave me the standard sedation.
I need a follow-up and this is agreed to be under propofol.
I really want to sue but I'm well aware what people think of suing the NHS, and that money wouldn't make me feel better. Thoughts?