To ask if anyone else is feeling really flat at the moment?

[Cactus1982]

I’m not sure if it’s related to the never ending relentlessness of the pandemic or not, but these last couple of weeks I’ve felt ever so flat and a bit ‘meh’ and feel no enthusiasm for anything and struggle to find enjoyment in things I usually would. I’ve had the vaccine due to my job, and yet I still can’t see the point? I’ve not been sleeping well, but also don’t feel tired either. I don’t feel hungry and have no appetite and yet am perfectly healthy physically (regular tests so not Covid) The only way I can explain is like an emptiness inside.

I’m wondering it’s just me is everyone feeling like that?

YANBU. I feel so fed up and low and flat this past few weeks. Me and DH are still on furlough and have had no date to go back yet. We don't even know if we will have a job to go back to.

I just heard all the THORNTONS stores are shutting down too, with over 600 jobs lost. I am worried our place will be next.

Been off since early November, and want to go back to work more than anything. Life on furlough is not the picnic some people think it is. Can't do anything, can't go anywhere, 20% less pay, and wondering if we will lose our jobs...

Can't get a doctor's appointment, can't go on a day trip, can't go to the pub or for a meal, can't go to any hobby groups, routine hospital appointments have been cancelled, can't see our family or friends, including our daughter (who we haven't seen her since Christmas day!) and can't go any further than the 4 miles (to our little market town.)

We have lovely woodlands and nice scenery near us (river/canal etc,) but we are bored shitless walking around the same area now! We have a few friends in the village, but anyone else we know, we haven't seen since October! Thank GOD for whatsapp and zoom and the internet, and netflix, amazon prime, and disney+ and the star channel (on Disney!) Me and DH would have gone stir crazy with no internet, no smartphones, and no TV!

@Kazzyhoward that is so upsetting about your client , how awful

I am feeling bored. So endlessly boooored. I’m fed up of watching tv, reading books, doing the same stupid walk every week. Also quite isolated. I think my friends and I have run out of things to say to each other to be honest. This time last year we were checking in with each other every day, all through the first lockdown we sent little letters and postcards to each other. Since November we’re just sending back and forth the same two texts “how are you?” Or “yeh I’m fine, how are you?”.

Very glad I’m not the only one. I was beginning to worry that it’s the start of a mental health spiral.

Does anyone else feel like they have stopped looking forward to being able to go out, do things, and see friends , once we are free again?

Almost like it’s too late now and I am past caring

@Kazzyhoward that’s awful about your client. That poor person.

Yes I feel this way too. The year milestone of covid really kicking off and 12m WFH along with being a big fat mess due to a year of over indulging due to boredom and loneliness mean I feel totally rubbish. I’ve got no energy at all. I almost don’t care about the world opening up again now as I’ve disengaged from it

Yes as well to @Youngatheart00 re weight gain. Three years prior to covid, I worked so hard to lose 4.5 stone. All gained back this year and probably more on top. Clearly I eat when I'm bored and stressed. Part of me doesn't want to see anyone again or go anywhere because I've regressed so much this past year. And every day I tell myself today will be the day I restart my diet. Then I don't because I don't feel like it.

I also get what people are saying about almost not wanting the world to open up again because I just can’t be arsed with any of it. I used to love going out for a meal and really missed it but couldn’t care less if I never ate out again. This is usually my favourite time of year when the days start to get longer the flowers come out and it feels warmer. But that makes me feel meh as well.

@hennybeans - yes, I also feel like that. I can't remember how good my life was like before all this so I think it won't make much difference even once everything opens back up.

Trying to be more positive, I do think it will be easier as it gets sunnier and warmer. Although I’ve been largely down in the dumps for months, it was better in the summer when I could at least sit in the garden inbetween sodding zoom meetings. Still no desire to socialise though. I’ve almost forgotten how.

The second Easter in lockdown
Physically and emotionally wrecked by being redeployed to COVID ICU
Not able to do the things that normally keep me on an even keel

Too right I am flat. I am so flat I can rarely raise a conversation. Have stopped listening to music, have stopped driving my car for pleasure, can’t be arsed to keep up with friends, don’t hold out much hope I will feel any better in a few months,tbh

YANBU. DH and I are lucky in that we are able to WFH, and we have no children so haven't had to juggle homeschooling, but dear God this is relentless. Watching the news tonight and there was very encouraging news about figures in my area of Kent, and then up pops some random scientist with her two-pennorth about a third wave and precautions being in place until the whole world is vaccinated. The gloom is overwhelming.

I was talking to my boss in the phone last week who is under a huge unrelenting amount pressure at the moment. Not unusual for our line of work, but as she said we'd take this in our stride with a lovely long boozy lunch at the end, but this is so joyless.

Still, I've got my first jab on Saturday so one step further.

Me too !

Very. Feeling really miserable all of a sudden. So, Started planning with my friend some possible city breaks, Ljubljana for maybe October?

I'm up and down. A few weeks ago I felt the same OP, but today I had a really good day so feel so much better. Got my vaccine booked, organised things at work, put up a curtain pole without too much stress, and the weather was lovely where I am. I'm just taking each day as it comes. Tomorrow I might feel rubbish again but it's not forever. We are all doing our best .

Flat and can't be arsed describes my mood well over the past year tbh. It's got worse with the last lockdown. I also feel very like I'm not bothered anymore once things do start opening up. I work in the nhs and the pressure throughout the year has been pretty hideous.

I recognise this is not normal and a sort of "reactive depression' brought on by circumstances. I can only compare it to a period of my life where I was grieving after a berevement and burnout from prolonged stress and responsibility. I felt numb for months. It lifted. What I needed was time to process it. I also had fabulous friends who took me away for a really fun weekend and got me pissed. Getting out with people and doing fun things which weren't related to the shit situation I was in was my relief along with a bit of counselling. That period changed me. It Kickstarted the next phase of my life travelling, taking some calculated risks at work that paid off. I felt brave and fearless for a while. I need to channel that feeling now!

I can feel the mood lifting. I was actually motivated to clean my house today ( two young children/ homeschooling+ work have left me on the floor energy and motivation wise) and I want to book stuff in. I actually looked at the roadmap to see when we could do certain things.

You're burnout . Me too xx www.theguardian.com/society/2021/feb/05/pandemic-burnout-rise-uk-latest-covid-lockdowns-take-toll

I think having a plan helps, although today was a bit exceptional. When I got the text about the vaccination it sort of galvanized me into getting lots of things sorted. Last weekend was awful though.

I drove to my walk today and was thinking back to this week this time last year, we were all so scared, anxious but sort of on high alert - it certainly wasn't exciting, that's def not the word, but there was an electricity in the air. Last gym session I went to, last meal, last run, etc it all felt so weird but oddly charged if that makes sense. Now it's like someone's taken the plug out of me. I can't imagine even wanting to do those things anymore even though I know deep inside I'm desperate to. I guess humans are just very good at adapting

I feel like crying, but I’m too tired. I’ve broken a tooth because my jaw is permanently clenched. I walk in the countryside at least twice a week, and I wish I could do it daily; it’s the only thing that I really enjoy now. I just need to move my body.

I was feeling like this last week. I think it was because I was really looking forward to the kids going back to school, only to realise that (while it is good for them) everything else is still locked down and rather joyless.

I'm feeling a bit better this week.

I hope better weather will be here soon. We had that remarkable weather from beginning of lockdown a year ago.

But also the waiting phase is long isn’t it. I’m glad dc are back at school now looking forward to other things.

It sounds too dramatic but I honestly think we're all a bit traumatized to a greater or lesser degree

metro.co.uk/2021/02/16/what-is-lockdown-fatigue-and-how-can-you-beat-it-14079545/

Lockdown fatigue is fucking shit. It’s how I’d describe depression to someone who’s never had it. A feeling of hopelessness and life being totally out of your control.

Yes I remember a year ago the realisation that we were doing certain things for that last time. I remember my DF going to the pub on a Sunday afternoon, even though at over 70 he was vulnerable and probably shouldn’t have gone. We all joked ‘this will be the last time you go for a long time’, because we knew what was coming.