To want to spend a couple of days in the body mind and brain of someone who is neurotypical?

[jincompoop]

I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2019, but obviously I've always had it, I just didn't know what it was.
I spend so much of my time overwhelmed and stressed. Tasks that would take a NT person 10mins can take me 10 times longer.

Work is the hardest thing. I'm waiting for a coach through Access to Work but right now I'm just trying to stop myself from drowning.

It's just so weird. I look at my colleagues, and what they do / how they do it, and I don't understand. I just don't get how someone can organise themselves and multitask. How they can be flexible, take on something extra at the drop of a hat. And get as much done as they can in the time we've got.
I would absolutely love to swap brains for a day, just to see how it feels like to have those skills. How does it work?? Sitting here in my sofa I don't feel abnormal, or disabled. I don't look like there's anything wrong. But then when I try to function it all falls apart.

Ive tried three different types of meds, none have helped and increased by BP which is already high.

I'm exhausted.

I feel like two people sometimes, the NT one criticising what the ADHD me is doing.
Definitely or a neat person by choice but messy and unorganised by nature.
Life takes lots of planning, thoughts focus on creative projects it can help the individual excel.
My DD is messy, disorganised, stressed, dizzy often but very creative and brilliant with tech.
Like a DC with it, work with lists, timetable, the power of 5. Do 5 bits done then re-evaluate for the next five, breaking down the day.
DD is often confused.