Anyone feeling a strange loss of confidence?

[Madtimes78]

I don’t really want to go out anymore? Not out of fear of the virus, just I’m not sure?
Almost as if my enthusiasm for anything has gone? I literally can’t imagine sitting in a group of friends having a drink. I want it more than anything but it almost seems scary. Trying so hard to keep going as ‘Normally’ as I can, anyone else feel like this?

@DDIJ ‘Never’ to the pub again, why not?

@DDIJ

Going to a pub is one of the things I wanted to do, way before lockdown, but lockdown has helped me reach acceptance that I never will.

I used to love walking but I have thrown out my boots, jacket etc. I feel total acceptance knowing that everyone has restrictions on them and the things I have railed against don't bother me any more. I may never leave these 4 walls again. This is my lot in life and I can accept it and make the best of it or I can make myself unhappy dwelling on it.

What's stopping you walking though?

@DDIJ I’m talking about the influence/impact of covid rules etc though..it’s a different thing if going to a pub etc wasn’t something you’d done for a long time before anyway isn’t it?

Could it be a form of depression?

@DDIJ how come you’ll never be able to go to a pub again or go for a walk?

I know what you mean OP. I have to go to work for odd days to access a certain system.(normally WFH) and it just takes me hours to get out of the door! Ages to get ready, have I got my keys, mask, pass - like I'm putting off leaving the house! I'm not worried about catching Covid, travelling in my own car, no one else at work!

I also went to an actual supermarket last week to pick up a Valentines Meal deal, haven't been in one since Christmas - picked up a vegan main instead of a meat one, missed the chocolates, picked up trout instead of salmon!

DH was laughing when I got home but it's made me slightly worried that I can't function in the real world!

I leave the house for walks so not getting agoraphobic or anything but I get what you're saying about going to the pub!

Although with regard to pubs I think I'll get over that pretty quickly once they are open! 🤣

I'm feeling a huge loss of self confidence in terms of my appearance - 11 months of over indulging because it's the only 'treat' we're allowed, and lack of real exercise, and as a result I don't look the same as when I last saw the majority of my colleagues and friends last March. I also have barely worn make up since then, and haven't done anything with my hair. I resemble a bedraggled swamp hag. I'm trying to reassure myself that the vast majority of people will be in the same boat when we are finally allowed to emerge into society again. At least, I hope so.

In terms of the restrictions - I've reached a state of almost defiance. I am beyond tired of lockdown and after lockdown after circuit breaker after quarantine after lockdown. At this point, if I'm going to die, just let me die happy (in Primark jostling for cheap jumpers, after watching a movie at the cinema next to someone chomping too loudly on nachos, on my way out for a meal cos I can't be bothered to cook, and before I have to go back into work the next day to attend a boring meeting filled with corporate buzzwords)

Absolutely not. Can't wait to get back to normal.

Totally understand what you mean, I’m living in PJ bottoms, I even wear them to the shop. It’s hard to get the motivation to even have a shower/comb hair, the thought of even getting in jeans 😨

For me it's anxiety, especially with work...it's so hard to really plug in at home with kids, and be focused, and it all feels far away and hard to concentrate on and my confidence is really knocked. Especially when there's nothing else to do and make me feel better or more like a human. And I'm pregnant which doesn't help.

@Waxonwaxoff0 It’s not that, I can’t wait to get back to normal too, god so much! I just feel totally blah and like not moving a lot, I have to force myself to go for the boring daily walk now and sometimes feel strange before walking out of the front door 🤷🏻‍♀️Perhaps it is a form of depression, I used to have such an appetite for life

I know exactly what you mean, OP. I have this sense of trepidation now and can’t see a point when I will feel ‘normal’ again. I get anxious when I have to go to the shops and have been relying on home deliveries instead. My hair is a mess and I feel disgusting and frumpy.

Let’s hope we receive good news on Monday with the alleged road map out of lockdown 🤞🏻

I'm not sure if it's confidence but similar to isolatedizzy I feel like I get everything wrong when I do go out- walked in the exit at the supermarket, didn't notice the I've way system until someone tutted, then noticed there were arrows everywhere. Nothing major, but like I'm not registering things around me like I used to. I also feel really disconnected from everything I used to do, so I'd love to go to the pub or for a coffee, but I can't imagine actually doing it, somehow.

Completely! I just feel so flat. I keep telling myself I’m lucky in that we’re healthy, financially ok, haven’t lost jobs... but I’m so burnt out, making stupid mistakes at work, lost all ability to focus and I look like shit. I’m dreading the world opening up and expecting me to participate

I think it's just because we are so used to not being able to do anything. I'm still working out of the home and DS is attending school so we still have some "normality" which I think helps.

I do feel a loss of confidence- especially with work things since having no one to bounce ideas off etc - but not the flat feeling you describe.

I can’t wait for things to open up again, and thankfully still really enjoy walking.

I’ve been homeworking since the start and appreciate how lucky I am that I can do this but I have lost all motivation now. I pray this doesn’t last.

Yes!. I was furloughed from March -November and since being back at work (fh) I've completely lost confidence in my decision processing. Stuff that I would do without blinking I now have to seek assurance I'm doing it right. I can't remember how any of our computer systems work when I was the 'go to' person PC. Had to drive for an hour yesterday (allowed) and it was very difficult/stressful compared to my recent once a month trip out 10 minutes down the road (I've been driving for almost 30 years). 'Thinking' is incredibly difficult. I was creating a list of things I want to do once I'm allowed out (I'm shielding) but I got stuck as I couldn't think of anything I actually wanted to do

I feel as though my social mojo has been derailed and is in a siding somewhere. When I think about things opening up again it does feel a bit overwhelming. Need to take it easy at the start is what I’m thinking. Also need to oil my wheels before getting back onto those tracks.
Think I also have an element of realising i don’t want to do everything I used to. Elements of this year have made me rethink quite how busy and non-stop bits of my life had become.
I’m also assuming lots of friends colleagues will be feeling the same.

I feel as if I have gone full on feral and will need rehabilitating back into the real world!

goodnightkevin
Regards to a fellow bedraggled swap hag !