To ask if anyone else has plunged into a horrible depression recently?

[SweetCruciferous]

First lockdown was a weird time and all and a bit claustrophobic with some low moments but manageable. At times it was also even quite pleasant and cosy, and I enjoyed the increased opportunities available to get involved in new stuff online (‘hey there’s a Bhangra class in LA on Tuesday morning!’)

But at some point recently things have plunged mentally (for me) and it just feels like a Netherland of unrelenting swampy gloom.

There are contributing worries/issues in my own life which were there before all this happened, however they no longer seem resolvable – it sort of feels like the die is cast, which I wonder/suppose is at least in part to do with the fact that life is kind of suspended and it’s difficult to focus on the future or positive change. I am no longer approaching things with a ‘good attitude’

Just wondering if it’s just me or if others are experiencing similar at the mo?!?

YANBU - can relate
YABU - can’t relate

I feel exactly the same. I think in the first lockdown, there was a feeling that things would be much more ‘back to normal’ by now. The current situation is made worse because it feels like there’s no conceivable end to it. The dark nights definitely don’t help either.

I’m trying my best to find positives, but it is difficult. I’m usually one of those people who goes Christmas mad in Nov/Dec but I’m struggling to muster the enthusiasm this year!

I hope you feel better soon OP

I focus on being alive and healthy. Situations will pass and I can adjust as I have previously in my 57 years.

Thanks @WhatAreWordsWorth and a to you too!

I think you’re right, it’s at least in part that sense of it all stretching out indefinitely, without a clear sense of time frames or what to expect. I think the weird, convoluted and constantly changing rules and advice from the government hasn’t helped – there’s no longer any kind of clear message or common purpose.

Yes. I had a particularly bad last weekend when I spent most of the day crying and just felt like I couldn’t do it anymore. This week I’ve been focusing on getting more sleep, drinking less alcohol and eating a bit better, as well as taking a daily walk. It has helped but I’ve really hit the wall with all of it now and just want to fast forward to Spring.

I got sectioned under 136 of the mental health act last night so I think it’s fair to say I’m not coping very well 😢

I feel like I’m living under a black cloud.

My cool as a cucumber DH has recently started medication for anxiety and depression.

I think a huge percentage of the population is REALLY struggling.

Hope you’re ok @CathyTre !

Have you been able to talk to any family or friends? Sending a hug and moral support your way

@CathyTre

I got sectioned under 136 of the mental health act last night so I think it’s fair to say I’m not coping very well 😢

I hope things start to get better really soon. Things will change.

Many personal contributing factors but it’s the absolute sheer unrelentingly constant nature of it all, with no light on the horizon that is hard. We can’t plan things to cheer us up - Christmas, get-togethers, holidays, meals out or theatre trips or experiences.

I love a country walk as much as the next person, and afternoons at home, but it all feels so bloody claustrophobic right now.

Absolutely. Never suffered with depression or any mental health problems. I am in my 40’s. But these last 4-6 weeks I have started to decline. I went through a patch about 2 weeks ago of 3 days of feeling extremely low and couldn’t shake it. Couldn’t even put my finger on what I was feeling low about.
Just feels like the ground is shifting under my feet and I can’t get a firm grip on my life. Kind of like I am in a strange dream some days and can’t shift out of it. I am really quite worried that this feeling will get worse

I am a very placid person but I'm so angry now. Angry my son missed school in lockdown and changed from an outgoing boy to a boy with MH issues. Just got hom back in school and back on track and now I'm angry it's all starting again and some people vociferously want schools to shut.
I don't know who is right but I can't help feeling like this

Thank you, I was assessed today and am now back under the care of the community crisis team and seeing a psychiatrist tomorrow for another assessment and plan for the immediate future. It’s all a bit bewildering but I feel a bit better now things are in place and hopefully can work to get stable and see my children soon. Last night was hugely traumatic and I feel a bit shell shocked.

I'm telling myself this will be OK, but clearly don't believe it. I find myself in tears over nothing. Shit times.

Yes I feel the same. I do get SAD though and was depressed this time last year. However, I made changes to my life such as giving up alcohol completely that pulled me out... this time I'm just thinking I may as well drink. Everything just leads back to "what's the point" :(

I also feel the same. I’ve been fine mostly up until the weekend but something has just changed in me,I’m also feeling a bit weepy and gloomy but willing myself to come out of it soon for the sake of my children.

I am. I live alone with my son and have been seeing someone for a few months- he lives Bristol way (I in South Wales).
I've had the worst luck in dating and finally, FINALLY things looked good and I thanked the heavens for meeting him.
I cry most nights because I don't know how this (lockdown) will all end. I feel like I'm being punished. Restaurants or beauty centres being open does not affect me as I have not been using them and if I did, it was with him. What I care about is seeing him again, and no- video dates are not the same.
I feel numb, nervous and on edge- wondering if I will see him this year at all, whether he'd phase himself out of my life because of the inconvenience of the lockdown and the distance between us.
It plays on my mind all the time.
I have a horrible feeling we will be in limbo for a while as a country, in and out of lockdown, and I really can't stand the thought of it.

I was very low on Friday night and Saturday. DH was diagnosed with severe clin depression last lockdown and I just don't know how we're going to get through that again.

DS1 has been low all weekend and I ended up contacting school today to ak them to keep an eye on him too.

I work with elderly, seriously ill and bereaved people. Not a single person I know wants this lockdown, even those who have lost family to covid, nor those who are high risk.

Yes I'm feeling the same. Had to move back in with my mum as my sector has started at all since March (events), job hunting everyday in a variety of sectors but jobs are getting hundred of applications in the first few hours and even those aren't very local and would mean a commute of up to 2 hours each way.
At the moment I feel like what's the point anymore. What's the point in looking for a job when it's all just no's. What's the point in looking to date when you can't meet anyone without breaking the rules.
I'm just focusing on one day at a time and knowing it's not just me in this situation

Yes I’m starting to feel low now! Struggling to get up and actually have back ache and shoulder ache almost like I’m actually carrying the weight of my thoughts on my shoulders! I went back to work end of September and now I’ve been put back on furlough again! I’m fortunate and I could have it worse but it’s all starting to really drain me, I could just stay in bed all the time!

I've been put on medication as of today, first time in my life I've felt this low.
Hugs to all who are struggling, I don't have any words of wisdom, the dark cloud analogy just about sums how I feel up.

@CathyTre

I got sectioned under 136 of the mental health act last night so I think it’s fair to say I’m not coping very well 😢

Sorry to hear this - hope you're getting support you need

I'm so glad to read this. I'm feeling very low, tearful, irritable etc at the moment. Everything seems so bleak and unfair. And no end in sight. I've deleted Twitter, news apps etc off my phone as I just don't have any energy left to care about things.

I hit the wall about 10 days ago. I can’t see life improving, don’t know what I’m going to do with myself, can’t concentrate on the things I need to get done and am increasingly tired and lethargic. You’re not alone.

Me too. I am going to try and get some anti-depressants tomorrow from the GP. It's been 4 years since I last took them (the only time) and I can't believe I need them again.

I'm so glad to see that I'm not alone. Best wishes to you all, we aren't alone