To just not be able to believe it

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Okay so maybe I had too much wine.
But I'm sitting here thinking I can't believe that me, and all the people I know, my family, the people I love and also just everyone around the world, all those lives that exist and everybody's individual quests... One day none of us who exist right now will exist. All our big feelings and hopes, and all these different bright personalities... We will just disappear, like none of us ever really mattered.

I just cant get my head around it. It seems so unfair.
I'm also listening to this song which is really upping the emotion: m.youtube.com/watch?feature=share&v=LESFuoW-T7I

[GraveyardKerfuffle]

'More than this' by Roxy Music gets me when I think like this. I sometimes wonder if it would be appropriate for my funeral

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@PeskyRooks
I did actually listen to the rnb song before you promoted me. I was like... Shes not really getting my mood here is she 😂

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Prompted not promoted

[SonjaMorgan]

The other night I was ugly crying whilst listening to 80s music because I don't want my DH to die before me. I just don't think I can take the heartbreak of losing him or my DC.

[TheyreComingToGetYouBarbara]

Best not to think about it too much, unless you enjoy a certain level of melancholy.

I comfort myself with the knowledge that even if I don't wake up tomorrow morning, I've had a lot of good times, and I've been lucky to live in a place and time where I was able to have better life than many who've gone before me. I've had some loving, wonderful people in my life. I can't complain even though I do, too much!

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@BelsizeNameChange
That was SO close to perfect but I think they really missed a trick by not having a big drum crescendo in there

[FadedRed]

Go on YouTube and search “The Highwaymen”. Go to the Aberdeen concert and listen to the first song “I am a Highwayman”.
Around and around and around.........

[LoveFall]

m.youtube.com/watch?v=whmzEXywq40

No wine here, it's too early yet. But this post resonated. So much anxiety and downright hatred around with Covid, the US election, and so much more.

I grew up in the 1960s. Think the dawning of the Age of Aquarius. Peace, love, enlightenment. I believed that we were moving towards a better more peaceful world. Really naive.

A month ago or so I stumbled on this video of Good Morning Starshine by Oliver. It makes me think I just can't believe where we are now.

I live very close to the US border. I am actually feeling anxious about the US election and its aftermath. I almost want to start hoarding toilet paper! How can this be? Can we go back please?

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@FadedRed

I absolutely love that song!!!!!!

[DolphinsAreEvil]

Walk away from the wine 😂😂😂😂

[Joeblack066]

Listen to Hamilton- it speaks very well in the lyrics of Legacies and the effect of having been here. These existential questions are so big, and unanswerable, but we do all live on, be it in our children, or in other things that we have done. We all make a difference. 🙂💜🙂

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Gradually getting pulled out of the maudlin vibe thanks to this song, which manages to be perky while still having that undertone of 80s yearning

[Allmyarseandpeggymartin]

I’ve been listening to the Arctic Monkeys today op and in one of their songs which is about boozing/going out they say:

“last night what we talked about, made so much sense but now the haze has descended, it dunt make no sense anymore”

I think drunk “us” knows our truths more than anyone

I totally get you, it’s true we won’t matter soon so you might as well make the best of your life and enjoy yourself. Have another beer op! Cheers

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Is it me or is the melody insanely close to I'll Stand By You?!

[73kittycat73]

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31st October...Samhain in the pagan religion...Halloween but actually All Saints... The day of the dead, the night when they say the boundary between the living world and the world of the dead is more porous[/quote]
Ah, I see (Forgot about Halloween! ). Thanks. :)

[Coriandersucks]

I enjoy those kind of evenings where music really moves you whilst thinking about the big things and doing a few ugly cries but I’m not there tonight. I just came on to say thanks for sending me down a billy Joel rabbit hole!

[NRatched]

I sit and think about stuff like this sometimes (not when drunk, so I dont have that excuse!). Theres one that makes me go so deep into my own thoughts I have almost passed out as it seems to confuse my brain somewhat..I cannot be the only one who has done this, but I have never mentioned to anyone so curious if its common.

Basically, start off by thinking about how you are thinking, how exactly your brain works, how its making you think right now, then how on earth does it do other things while you are making it think about one certain thing, back to how your brain knows you want it to think..etc. Its a really weird feeling, and its hard to actually snap myself out of it sometimes and I get stuck in some weird loop thing in my head, where I cannot stop thinking about thinking but need to try and think to get out of the almost tracelike state, then thinking about why my brain is not stopping thinking when I try to make it do so, and so on. Might (probably very likely) be a weirdo though Just was interested if anyone else does that, or if I am going a bit round the twist!

Sorry for slight derail, but it seemed to fit here and for some reason I felt the urge to share for the first time ever. I have done this for at least 20 years now, since being a young teen. It still gets me everytime, and makes me feel SO weird.

[LoveFall]

More on topic than Starshine, I give you The Rankin Family, Waves on the Ocean.

m.youtube.com/watch?v=k66wSOJR_BM

Sadly, Rayleen Rankin, who was the lead singer in this piece, died of breast cancer in 2012.

I find this song quite comforting, even though I could not listen to it without crying when my parents died.

[WitchesSpelleas]

I find it very comforting to know that I will not exist forever, and nor will anyone else or even our planet.

It puts everything into perspective. When I am beating myself up over some mistake or failure, the thought that I will become dust and ashes wraps around me like a comfort blanket.

[LoveFall]

Oops it's called We Rise Again.

[FadedRed]

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@CutToChase- yes, makes sense of all the crazy, doesn’t. I’d be content with being a single drop of rain.
If you want the tears to flow then try the same concert at 47:54 ‘Angel flying too close to the ground’.

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@NRatched

I'm glad you got to express this thought you've had, it's not one I think if but there is a similar (maybe?) thought I get sometimes that freaks me out a bit. It happens when I'm standing at a train station and I think to myself - my brain controls everything i do, so my brain is preventing me from stepping in front of a train right now. But what if my brain disobeyed me - or rather what of my body disobeyed my brain. Or what if now I've had the thought, my brain will command my body to step onto the tracks, while my conscious mind doesnt want it to. I can get the same thought if I'm on a top floor of a tall window. It's nothing to do with suicidal thoughts btw, just it's like all of a sudden I realise how much power my brain has and I wonder at the difference between a brain giving an order and your "self" (but what is a self if not a brain) not wanting the same thing.

Sorry I'm not explaining this very well. But your thought process reminded me of that

[Doubleyikes]

I remember my grandma saying that time speeds up when you get older. I used to roll my eyes and think ‘time is time and it goes at the same pace’. Which is true but bloody hell now I’m 60 the weeks and months seem to whizz by at a frightening speed. At family celebrations my brothers and I are the older generation now. I can’t get my head round the fact that the people who featured so large in our life are no longer here - grandparents, parents, aunts, uncles etc. All the relatives who played such a huge part are reduced to dust. It is so natural and inevitable yet feels so weird sometimes. I’ve just had the one large G& T tonight.

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@FadedRed
Funny how the mind works. The line that always got me was "I fly a starship". Just his pitch when he says it, and the image. Going to listen to it now!