My mum passed away when I was 10 and my gran brought me up.
Before my mum died us 3 were so close.
Anyway then it was just me and gran,she was my best friend,I moved in with her when she developed Alzheimer's and was her full time carer.
I was seeing a man for around a year.
She broke both hips and ended up in hospital.
She had to go in a care home,she stopped recognising me and was wasting away.
I became depressed and I needed support.
My boyfriend didn't get it,he said it was "just my gran,she's old"
He would most days read my texts and ignore me then post on Facebook about meaningless crap.
I would snap and say "you can't even reply to a message"
"Why you being like this ?"
He would throw women in my face "she wouldn't behave like this and she's attractive,she text me last night etc "
My gran was dying and 7 weeks it took her to pass.
I was a total mess.
I needed support
He broke up with me saying he was sick of my "mood swings"
I didn't have "mood swings" I just wanted him not to ignore me when I needed him.
I explained everything I wrote here,how much I loved her,how I struggled to deal with knowing she was going to die and couldn't change it.
Watching her die,holding her hand whilst she was taking her last breaths.
I said "I'm sorry I'm a mess but I had to do it all alone,I had nobody to turn too"
He said .."not my problem,not putting up with you going moody on me for nothing,everyone has stress"
Aibu to think I'm not a bad person? I was just having a bad time ?