After last week's thread where I didn't know whether my job or dh was dragging me down.
The general consensus was dh.I had a dreadful day at work and made a mistake which I quickly rectified but felt bad about.The next day a junior member of staff I have had issues with before decided to use mask wearing to not communicate or speak to me for the day which made life difficult as.we.need to speak regularly.They claimed they were unwell so I let them go home early which was silly as they hung around with another dept for over an hour.
I then saw dh today where I asked him if he was happy just staying in his room watching sport and going out with his mates.
He said he was apart from the infrequent sexlife.
I pointed out that if he bothered with me emotionally instead of just keep saying do u want a shag.It was a couple of yrs since df died this week and he never mentioned it claiming I never mentioned his dm s passing as it was 44 yrs ago.
Then we were gardening and he moved a garden slab chucked it down on my sandaled foot saying I thought you had moved!!
He refuses to say sorry to anyone ever.Dd has pointed this out too when she lived at home.I would expect some concern tbh.
I'm feeling very low tonight like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place.
A colleague said I am too soft that is why my junior is off with me.