@squanderedcore oh yes he knew I was very unhappy with my weight and he's always been very supportive. I haven't always been as large at 15 stone 5! But there was no way I wanted to ruin our weekend away by moaning about what were self inflicted pains! It got me thinking about actually doing something properly and not just making half hearted attempts that would then fail each day by 4pm
Ah we eat a bit weirdly here anyway so no issues with me eating my own thing! I make family meals for them and then I sometimes eat what they're having or I have something different or I eat a little later. They're used to it - I'm a strict vegetarian and they're meat eaters
Set interim targets as 10 stone 5 when you're 15 stone 5 is just a depressingly long way away! I wanted to be 14 stone something and then I wanted to be 13 stone 13 so those were the first goals.
I then shifted this to 12 stone 13 and then last week amended to 12 stone 6 to make me just (ha) overweight
Next goal is 12 stone 5 as that's exactly 3 stone lost and then 11 stone 13 to see the 11s again.
I do sometimes feel like it's taking forever though! Was stuck at 12 stone 13 for 4 'weeks so what this has taught me is that weight loss isn't linear. It doesn't drop off at a nice little 2 lbs each week. I'll stay the same for weeks, give or take a lb , and then suddenly drop 6 lbs in 7 days - and then the cycle starts again. So it's now knowing this that means I can ride it out when the stalls happen - calories in vs calories spent is scientific so I know that just by sticking to it, it has to work. And it does
Another saviour is the one day a week where I up my calories. I don't have 'cheat days' any more - trying to change my mindset and I don't have 'days off.' I'll use my higher calorie day to add in a bagel and nut butter or some squares of organic chocolate (hilariously I've told myself this is FAR better than a slab of dairy milk!) or I'll just eat more. I log everything on nutricheck (far far easier than MFP for me) and it's this logging that stops any lack of control. I've told myself I can have 2000 or 2500 calories and the guilt just goes. There's then no 'getting back on it' the next day and o change up the days so it's not a 'reward' for losing weight
God that was an essay wasn't it?
Thank you all for your uplifting comments. I do find it a slog sometimes - mainly because I still have 2 stone to go and that doesn't even make me 'slim! - so this has really helped.