I went on Tinder without any expectation at all, after briefly dating a man IRL that turned out to be a wannabe cocklodger.
On my Tinder profile I made it clear that I'm not just after sex, so not to message me if that's what they're after. Anyhow, had several matches and had a few guys message me.
Hit it off with one in particular and a few weeks down the line he asked if I'd like to go on to social media, to which I agreed. A month in he asked to meet up. I had a great time, thanked him, etc.
To cut a long story short, lockdown got in the way and all I've got is confusion and mixed messages - blowing hot and cold. He seems inexperienced with women in general, though this is part of the reason why I'm attracted to him.
Without giving too much else away, he has similar social attitudes, set of values to me, interests, etc to me. He's intelligent, funny, caring... l'm attracted to him in ways I can't explain, and think I've fallen in love with him. Ridiculous, I know, we've only been on one 'date'.
Well, he's ghosted me. I'm not sure how to process this, so have come on here to get it off my chest, so to speak. I'm very much the type of person that keeps plodding onward, even in times of crises, though right now I'm feeling a little raw and disillusioned. Perhaps if this had happened at any other time I wouldn't be feeling quite so heart sore.
I'm quite sure of the reasons why he's turned off me/not interested in me, and it's shattering to my self-esteem to say the least. Never dating again seems like a real possibility right now.... maybe again when I'm an OAP and life is a bit simpler... I dunno.
Please be gentle. Sad.