Please help I'm feeling really paranoid about something stupid :(

[Sparklfairy]

I feel so stupid right now but can't calm down

I try and work in bed overnight as it's quiet and there's fewer distractions. All was going well tonight and I took a coffee break.

Then a fucking huge spider ran across my bed towards me.

I don't usually mind spiders, and never kill them. But I totally freaked out and killed it.

I live in a first floor flat, and in two years of living here I have never ever come across a spider.

It's a tiny studio, not even room for a sofa or TV. My bed is my office, dining table, sofa and bed. I feel trapped wondering if there's more of the buggers lurking in corners or even if there's a nest somewhere Where the fuck did it come from and I keep imagining working and then having another fucker suddenly crawl over me.

It's irrational I know, but I'm really upset, like I can't relax now in my tiny space. Please talk me down (and reassure me there's not a huge nest in a corner somewhere)

It’s gone now. You’re fine. Open the windows a bit, have a glass of water and breathe. I’ve never seen a whole nest of huge spiders in my life, it must have been a one off. You’re ok.

Ive only seen one spider in my bedroom in last 5 years. One swallow does not make a Summer. Don't worry, these things are a one off.

OPEN the windows!? That's probably how the fucker got in. Incy wincy climbing up the water spout and all that shudder

If it had been in the bath I'd have been fine. I think it was just where it was my fucking bed. I've had to throw all the pillows and covers on the floor and sit in the middle of the mattress where I can see everything.

This may be a sign I'm slowly unravelling in lockdown. Actually, the fucker broke lockdown himself and wandered into my flat! Bastard.

Calm Down!

You've seen 1 in two years! He was a Solo adventurer

Focus on getting some work done!

Come on sweetie, you are going to have to put your big girl knickers on and grow up. 😊
Just think about the poor spider, he was quite happily marching across your bed and then this HUGE human comes along and freaks him out!!
Seriously it was probably just a one off. Get on with your work... 😘

I know fuck all about spiders, but from my extensive knowledge of spider feature films, I do know that you probably only have the one if it was female (did you ask?) they don't like other spiders in their space

Thank you all I felt like a twat for posting but I knew you'd make me feel better!

Why are you working in bed overnight? Do you sleep during the day then?

Yeah I sleep for a few hours til about lunchtime, eat and do house stuff, then have another couple of hours and work again at night.

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SisyphusLangClegRocks ohhhh nooooooo!!! Is it possible to laugh and sob at the same time?! Because I think I just did

Feel guilty now

Don't worry too much about other spiders. They're cannibals so it probably ate the competition

SisyphusLangClegRocks that's a good point. I feel much more rational now anyway. Like I said they normally don't bother me. I grew up in the country and there was always one lurking in a corner somewhere. Just gave me a total fright and it was in my lovely bed running towards me like it was claiming it's territory and I had nowhere to run

shudder I need to stop thinking about it now. The memory is giving me the heebie jeebies.

Frankly, I would have run screaming into the street then returned to burn the house down. I think you reacted very calmly!

ProperVexed that makes me feel a little better. The bastard had no respect for social distancing. That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it

Last summer we lived in a house that we inherited.
It had been empty for 2 years.
It was absolutely stunning, the ceiling was made of wood. There were gaps between the wood.

Every night hundreds of house spiders bigger than my fricking head would drop down on us as we slept. Absolutely horrific experience.

Eventually we bought a mosquito shaped tent thing and slept in that.

They used to land on it, it would be covered.

Fucking horrific.

Other than that the house was wonderful!

I wonder if the people who bought it from us have experienced it yet??

Spiders don't live in nests, they are antisocial buggers.

@HowFurloughCanYouGo that story is literally horrifying and I'm not a spiderphobe

@HowFurloughCanYouGo that is horrifying!

OP you should Google Phil Jupitus' sketch about spiders!
I'm terrified of spiders so I would also be reacting as you are. In fact I would probably have to sleep on the sofa

@HowFurloughCanYouGo you have described my worst nightmare. I couldn't have coped with that.

@HowFurloughCanYouGo that is truly the stuff of horror movies!

@SagaBauer I don't have room for a sofa here it's truly tiny. That's what made it worse I think. I had nowhere to go and escape and it just came at me!

And the golden rule is you don't let them out of your sight, because not knowing where they are is definitely worse than knowing what you're dealing with!

We have a spider living in our bath at moment. It only comes out at night. We have named it as Arnie.

Adrenaline is probably why we feel the way we do after even a mild scare or threat. The effect of it on our body and mind is fascinating!

Please, let me thank you. You inspired me and my creativity, to write a poem.
POOR FRED
Poor Fred is dead
He ran across my bed
His legs a blur of skittering
wobbliness.
Poor Fred is dead
He ran across my bed
His fangs a blur of chattering
Nastiness
Poor Fred is dead
he ran across my bed
His belly a blur of shiny
blackness.
There's no kindness left
here in my tiny room
where once I captured poor Fred's mum
in a glass. With a piece of card,
and put her gently in the garden.
Now I sit, staring into corners,
wondering where poor Fred lived
before he took his final run across my bed
and did he leave behind
some other skittering mates
with too many legs?

That poem is great!!