Me(21) and my fiance (29) have been together for almost 5 years, we currently live with his father so I can cook for his father as well. He has a business with his father, I am a qualified personal trainer but he prefers me staying at home and cooking ect. so I quit my job last year. He is very into strength sports and spends most of his money on his training,nutrition and supplements. I wanted to get married (small court marriage) soon after we got engaged but he wants to wait about 4 more years. I recently had a miscarriage and I am so torn because a doctor told me I would strugle to get pregnant so when I saw the blood clots and felt pain worse than any period cramps I have ever had my heart sunk (we were not trying but I believe every baby is a miracle and needs to be cherished) after living through the worst week of my life I did not receive any support from my partner, when I asked him after a few weeks if he felt anything about the miscarriage he told me he did not feel anything about it, it didn't affect him. I was so stunned and awe struck, it felt like I was talking to a complete stranger. Now every time I bring up the topic of babies or the future he just tells me that he does not know what he sees in his future. I have no idea what to do? Do I move back in with my mother and start looking for a job and a place of my own or do I keep trying with him. I am truly and deeply in love with him.