Some may remember me from the thread about going for a scan the next day after multiple pregnancy losses and we miraculously saw our babies heart beat for the first time ever (out of a LOT of previous pregnancies).
Well unfortunately that heart has stopped and I just feel dead inside. I had surgery on Wednesday to remove it.
I just don't know what to anymore. This is never going to happen for me it feels like but I don't want to live if that's the case.
I feel like I'm being constantly pushed back to square one every time we make some progress.
I just don't think I'm strong enough for this. I have nothing.