My husband has a low sperm count. We found out 4 years ago and when that happened he didn't speak to me about the issue for 2 years. Slowly he started to open up and was willing to talk. Now in late 2019, he said he would stop all smocking (recommended by the doctor).
I am 39 and he is 34.
Yesterday, after not smocking for 1 month, he told me he wanted to start smocking again because he is stressed at work, but said that he would only smoke occasionally and not go back to his daily habit of 15 cigarettes per day.
Now I feel terrible because I feel like he is not making a full commitment to our joint decision to try and have a baby. I am upset because the doctor said that if he stopped smocking for 3 months we could check his sperm again to see if not smocking improved his fertility.
So by saying he would occasionally smoke I feel like he is go back on his word to quit. Last night we had a terrible fight, and I called him selfish, and he said I was being unreasonable. I am 40 this year and more importantly just feel like I am living in limbo waiting for dear husband. To give some context I am also a trailing spouse, and for the past 4 years we have lived in 3 different countries, as he pursues his career and I am at home occasionally doing some free-lance work.
AIBU when I say it is not cool for him to start smocking occasionally?