I have one 2 year old DC, who started nursery four days a week recently so I could focus on my self employment. January has always been my quietest month, but this January has been abysmal and I’ve had to start applying for other jobs as I’m worried about being able to pay normal bills as well as DC nursery fees.
I’ve found one which pays better than my current self employment - but it means I have to put DC into nursery for an extra hour every morning, when they already do four full days. It’s a specific ‘early morning club’ and I don’t think many children attend.
I feel sick with guilt at putting DC into nursery for so many hours in the first place, and for my self employment to not take off like I’d hoped, and to now have to possibly book even more hours on top. 