Never ever posted on here and a bit scared but would welcome advice.. my husband of 6 years and father of my 2 kids 5 and under left me in the summer as I’d run up a debt and not told him and I’m “ shit with money” I do work and earn my own money but from the start of our relationship he insisted i pay it all into a joint account which was fair enough. Only he then started printing out the bank statements and then highlighting everything I spent and got cross about it. He wouldn’t let me do the food shop as I spent too much and then took my bank card away to “ protect” our finances from me. Then I had the kids. He didn’t cope well with them as newborns and I did everything, all night feeds etc. With my youngest daughter he was awful. Just had no patience at all at shouted at her right from a newborn. Anyway he walked out in August and had blamed me entirely as I ran up a debt. For years he’s sworn at me, told me to “ shut the fuck up” called me a dribbling alcoholic, useless at driving, told me my kids will be embarrassed of me, I can’t be trusted to make any decisions, I’m bi polar etc etc. I’m now on anti depressants and feel like a burden to everyone and have no confidence. When we met I supervised a department, was a bubbly size 6 gym bunny with no debts. Now I’m overweight, heavily medicated with severe anxiety. Yet I still feel so sad about the separation and feel an utter failure. Does it get easier? Or aibu to move on and forge a new life. I feel so guilty about my mistakes and responsible as I did run up a debt. My dad died when I was heavily pregnant with my first and then then had a traumatic Labour with my first and I did lose the plot a bit. I just feel so sad and hopeless all the time but need to get the divorce sorted and keep a stable environment for my kids