I miss my Mum so much and I miss home

[Rugbyonthebeach]

Christmas holidays and it's just hard. I really miss her. It's been a long time since she died but sometimes...oh my goodness is it hard.

It sounds peculiar but I just wanted to write a thread to remember her aloud, kind of. She was so wonderful and kind and loved me so much. I felt so special, like I was smart and talented and had a lot to offer the world. She just really believed I had all these good qualities.

She was an amazing writer. So much fun to be with. She was a dear friend to a wide circle, because she was so kind and helpful, but also loved to laugh.

I have moved halfway across the world and I miss her, and the home we had together. I just had to say it somewhere other than my own head.

To my Mum, I will love you forever..

How beautiful and very sad. I am sorry for your loss.
I read a thread once on a poster who lost their DM. They use to remember their mum would come to the school face hold their face in their hands for a kiss. It was heartbreakingly beautiful.

I know that feeling. Christmas is always hard to deal with.💕

All my older relatives are dead now and that also includes DH. I am not so young but I feel like a lost child. It is not great to be the oldest person now when I feel like I am not old enough for all this.
I see so many posts about awful Mums and MILs on here and it makes me feel very unhappy. I wish I could have mine back again and others.
Sorry to hear that there are so many others feeling so sad at the loss of their relatives. We know it will happen one day, and we should be grateful for the time we had with each relative but reality is that I am just so sad without them all.
(Flowers) to all PPs;

I'm sorry you are sad op, but what a beautiful tribute to your mum. If we could all have relationships with our children like you had with your lovely mum how lucky we would be

This is what I wanted to say but @ceceliamcflange has put it so much better than I would have. and a big hug for you OP x

@TheBouquets... May I ask your age? Do you have children? Grandchildren? It really is true isn’t it? We NEVER feel any different whether we’re 15 or 55 or 75. Yes, life experience is acquired but I feel like you. I’m not old enough to have no mum. My dad died many years ago but I didn’t know him well, sadly. My mum was the person who knew me best and longest and I feel a huge part of me has now gone with her.

@MissKittyBeaudelais thank you for your post and concern.
I am late 50s. I do have children and a fair few grandchildren.
There are a lot of difficulties with me DC, DGC and SILs. It would
be very outing to give any details but I am under quite extreme
threat and duress from certain people. In fact it is not just threat!
I think it safer for me and better for my psychological welfare to
keep silent and out of the way.