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Do you feel that you have a purpose in life?

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 11:15

For sometime I feel as though I am just drifting in life with no real sense of purpose or reason.
I’m 46 and never really had any major ambition (which I deeply regret now as I realise now that I would have loved to have had a career).
Until a year ago I had been a SAHM for 10 years. I now work part time for a disabled lady and next year will also help look after my mum. She has Alzheimer’s and dad needs a couple of days to himself so I’ve offered to help (sibling works full-time so cant help).
It’s too late to retrain for anything, I don’t really have the funds and most of my time is taken up looking after everyone else.
AIBU to ask if this is just normal life and maybe I’m having a bit of a mid life crisis? Do any of you feel that you have a sense of purpose? If you do what is it that gives you that feeling of purpose and contentment?

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elderflowerviolet · 21/12/2019 11:18

No. I think that careers and jobs are about money and I want to earn as much of it as I can, so I will try to better myself to that end but I don’t kid myself it’s for any purpose other than my own monetary gain.

I’m a nice person honestly Xmas Grin

Jumpi · 21/12/2019 11:22

I think this is how all SAHMs must feel deep down. They then put everything into their kids hobbies and schooling/careers instead.

I find it helpful to set yearly goals, it makes a difference to have something to work towards.

BornSnippy · 21/12/2019 11:23

I do. I’m early 40s. My purpose is fourfold:

  • raise met kids to feel secure and happy and to be kind;
  • continue to progress in my career to make my organisation the happiest workplace it can be and to ensure it serves the people of the country as best it can;
  • continue to volunteer my time each week for the charity I am passionate about to improve the prospects for kids in my area;
  • be kind and attentive to friends and acquaintances every day so that in a tiny way I can believe I am helping make people’s’ lives better.

Basically I only see the point in living if I can end each day feeling I did what I could to make society a little kinder. I feel the World is pretty fucked up and I can get quite upset about it unless I feel I’m doing my little bit to change things.

SerenDippitty · 21/12/2019 11:24

I don’t actually feel that I need one, as such. I didn’t ask to be born and do not have to justify my existence.

ComtesseDeSpair · 21/12/2019 11:27

No, but I don’t need one. I’m just making my way through life, keeping myself amused, enjoying my time here as much I can and hopefully not actively making anyone else’s life worse along the way. I figure if we all did more or less the same, the world would be a better place for it. But I don’t believe in any obligation to change the world or fulfil some sort of purpose.

Chamomileteaplease · 21/12/2019 11:29

To leave the world a better place than I came into it.

Generally by trying to be kind and lovely to people Xmas Smile. When I can bear to Grin.

AnchorDownDeepBreath · 21/12/2019 11:29

Do you want a career? It's not too late to retrain.

If not, can you set yourself other targets for each year? Learn to ski, learn a language, learn a style of cooking...

aroundtheworldyet · 21/12/2019 11:30

It’s not to late to do a degree or train for something or even take some taster classes in something you might enjoy. You never know where it might lead

PlomBear · 21/12/2019 11:31

I’ve had a series of bullshit jobs that mean nothing.

OceanSunFish · 21/12/2019 11:32

I don't think that 46 is too late to retrain. My SIL is a couple of years younger than you and retrained as a social worker a year ago. I'm the same age as you, and I changed careers aged 40 (after several years as a SAHM) and recently applied for a new job in something a bit different again. Both times didn't / won't involve any retraining costs - I just applied for a different job and hope to demonstrate that I have transferable skills. I haven't heard back yet from the recent application, so I may be rejected - but I'm giving it a go! Is being a carer what you want to do or do you feel under family pressure to do so?

SophieSong · 21/12/2019 11:32

What did you do before becoming a SAHM? I think a purpose doesn't have to be about some grand plan - I think it's more about connecting to what makes you feel really alive and interested in life. Might be a hobby, or a career, or parenting, or a million other things.

PlomBear · 21/12/2019 11:34

Do any of us actually have a purpose? In 100 years we will all be dead and forgotten. In a few thousand years, the earth won’t exist. It’s all pointless. The only thing you can do is enjoy every day because it will all be over one day.

elderflowerviolet · 21/12/2019 11:37

It isn’t too late but realistically OP may not be able to do so.

I honestly think MN think retraining is more straightforward than having a baby.

CaptSkippy · 21/12/2019 11:42

There are people getting college degrees in their 90s. If your mind and body allow you do it, why no? Go for it. You are 46, not dead.

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 11:43

I really don’t have the funds to retrain tbh so feel that ship has sailed but I would like to invest more time into a hobby or trying some volunteering maybe?
OceanSunFish I didn’t plan on being a sahm for so long I applied for hundreds of different jobs and only landed one interview which was unsuccessful. It’s why I ended up as a pa for a disabled lady, it wasn’t my ideal job tbh but was all I could get.

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 11:46

elderflowerviolet I do kind of agree with you. As kind as it is that people encourage retraining, I have looked into it in the past and the kind of things I am interested in take years and cost thousands, thousands I just don’t have, sadly.

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JesusMaryAndJosepheen · 21/12/2019 11:47

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 11:47

CaptSkippy but I think those people must have money because everything I’ve looked into costs £££’s.

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Oblomov19 · 21/12/2019 11:48

No. Am I supposed to?

elderflowerviolet · 21/12/2019 11:52

And also there’s a time element. Realistically op would be 48 or thereabouts when she started work.

That’s okay if it is a shortage profession, I get that she could have 15 working years, but for other possibilities, it’s very late to start.

ViaSacra · 21/12/2019 11:53

No, but I don’t think I need a purpose.

BoomZahramay · 21/12/2019 11:54

We exist temporarily and by accident, therefore everyone has the same purpose: to seek out and create as much happiness for yourself as you can. Spreading a little to others seems pretty worththwhile too.

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 12:01

It’s lovely to not feel that there should be a sense of purpose and to just live your life, I very much admire that way of thinking, my husband lives his life like this, it probably does bring a natural sense of contentment but unfortunately I am an overthinker and always feel I should have some sense of fulfilment. Maybe I should look into volunteering and helping some cause?

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SunshineAngel · 21/12/2019 12:08

I don't feel that I have a "purpose", but I also don't feel that I need one.

I do have to work, but outside of that I plan to enjoy myself as much as I can, spend time with people who I enjoy being with and who deserve my company, and that's that.

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Afternooninthepark · 21/12/2019 12:10

Maybe I am over thinking it (and looking at social media too much!!). Maybe I should just relax and enjoy the good things I have and stop thinking that I need more? Maybe that is the answer to having a purpose?

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