I just sent DP a text which has caused a massive fight and now I really regret it. For background, I'm under a lot of pressure at work and close to resigning. I'm very stressed and tired and DP's alarm (yet again!!) woke me up super early. He's done this before, he just turns it off and falls asleep. But I can't. So I was already annoyed and more tired than I should be. Barely functioning.
He's arranged to have a massive boys night out this weekend which involves a bunch of guys coming to our place at midday Saturday, going out, coming back at 3-4 am (going by history) and then all sleeping at our place. It's a tiny open plan 1-bed and I have nowhere to hide. It's the weekend before Christmas and everyone I know is going home/spending it with partners. I have nowhere to go (I'm a foreigner here, no relatives and only a handful of friends). So I was annoyed he's organized all this on a weekend where everyone else is with their families and I'm just there, in the flat, by myself all weekend, somehow trying to keep out of their way. So I told him this and that, while I don't expect him to cancel any plans, I'm upset by it. And that I feel he just plans and does what he wants and I'm only there for when his mates aren't available. I guess I'm annoyed he's had so many nights out lately, about 4 a week (some.work related, some not) from which he sometimes comes late and wakes me up. And I'm annoyed it slowly went from some drinks with friends, to friends crashing at ours, to friends coming at 2, dropping stuff, having drinks, going out and spending the night..My parents are coming for xmas and I wanted to get the flat ready, do some shopping, relax.
I know I was unreasonable, now he's cancelled on his friends because of my message (I clearly told him not to cancel anything, I was trying to prevent this from happening again!) and he's very angry with me. I guess I shouldn't have been annoyed just because I was feeling lonely. He's great in all other areas. I just need to grovel now, don't I?