To be massively fucked off with my mother and my dead dog?

[hairychinsrus]

I've never had a good relationship with my mother. After a lot of therapy I've discovered that the issue is that she is a narcissist and out side of a therapist view a lazy cow.
Never hugged or felt loved as a child, her favourite sayings were "oh you will grow out of it" to basically any problem or issue. I learnt to never disclose anything to her as either it would be dismissed or used somehow against me. You cant critique her as she has the emotional intelligence of a toddler and screams at you or goes off in a huff
Final straw this week is we had our darling 15 year old dog pts which although kind of expected still awful. I told her and no oh I'm sorry or any words really of sympathy apart from she had a good life. She then went on to say "it's one less for you to worry about" (we have 3 other dogs)
I'm just so completely fucked off with her and wish she would fuck off. I don't feel like she's ever been a mother to me and I look forward to the day she's no longer in my life
Sorry for the rant but it's just really hit me how awful she is

ImNotYourGranny oh that’s great news. I’m so pleased for you, it must have been so scary. Thank you for the update. 😀

hairychinsrus I’m pleased you’ve had some great support from pps, apart from one of course. 💐

This could me my DM too! The saddest part for me is that I keep believing that one day I will get the love, empathy, support. It never happens though. So sorry about your DDog, it’s really sad even if you expect it .

I try to accept that I’ll get nothing, but deep down the hope is still there. I really feel for you ... it just doesn’t go away does it?