Aibu to think trying to change my personality has made me depressed?

[whatisforteamum]

For many years I have loved my job.My current one I have been at for a few year's and always looked forward to going in.My dcs are.grown up so it has been my life tbhPeople comment on my work ethic
.Also the long days mean I would have to love it or be miserable as I miss many social occasions.
Recently the team changed quite a bit and I am 30 years senior to many people.This is ok though.Even my boss is newish and decades younger.I don't know if I am being paranoid.
He made remarks that I talk alot...I do.I am very passionate energetic person which is.what gives me my drive to get things done and get through a 55 hour week.Other bosses.haven't minded.
So I dumbed down the chatter.I am also highly organized and disciplined so I've been advised to calm this to let others learn by themselves.
This week I feel dreadful.unwell and unmotivated.😩 Perhaps a virus or can being silenced so much have made me depressed?
I work in a male dominated environment and have never felt so useless.I am trying to be a team player.
I've lost my drive and feel like looking elsewhere.Anyone else experienced this?

Sounds like a plan.😊

I just read an article that says women are called bossy and.told to tone it down more than men!
.I feel a bit better today bit more motivated.I be decided to look for another job however I will stand back and let others learn whilst being my bubbly enthusiastic self today.I will not be broken down.My boss did tell me he did this to a woman before.Basically froze her out and one comment made her cry.
I have never cried in the workplace and won't start now.