Smoking

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I really, really want a cigarette. The craving has come over me all of a sudden and I need a cigarette.

I gave up 4 years ago and have vaped ever since. Not even my vape is cutting it today.

I've had a lot of stress recently (mum dying suddenly, home purchase falling through, PTSD, being temporarily homeless, DD being a pain (she's with me 24/7 - I've been a single parent since she was born), chronic pain, moving into new home etc)
I'm having a glass of wine and I am so tempted to pop to the shop and buy a pack.

I can't think of one reason not too.

Is it really U of me to have a few tonight with some wine? Or is that a really stupid idea?
I'm confident it would only be tonight and I'll be back on the vape from tomorrow.

I haven't smoked since 2008 and at times of great stress I find the urge coming back. I was very much a 'social' smoker.

But for me, I know it's a slippery slope - I have such an addictive personality that I can't just take things or leave them. If I caved and had a few one night then I'd find the excuse again next time and then it would become a Saturday night only thing. Then it would be a weekend only thing and then a only when drinking thing etc etc.

I also try and remember that it doesn't actually change anything. After the cigarette or drink or whatever the vice - the stress is still there, the situation is still the same. For me that helps me resist.

Well done for not giving in so far 💪🏼

I gave in. It tasted VILE. I had about 3 draws and then stopped. Still have the rest of the pack 2 years later.

I know it's a vile, murderous, stinky habit. My rational head keeps screaming that at me.
But my childish, annoying, nagging side is like 'Pleaaaaassseee just oneeee'

It's not helped that I've had some wine, but fuck me it'll drive me demented not having either at the minute.
I'm gonna keep talking if you lovely lot don't mind.

My friend is coming round in a little bit and I need to try and hold off.

I just think about how bad they taste and how smelly they are and the craving goes.

Try a different e-liquid flavour.

It doesn't help that I love the smell of other people's cigarettes.
So the smell, when I'm not smoking, is so tempting.

I massively regret ever picking up a cigarette all them years ago. Thought I was dead cool, now look; a 30 odd year old woman, sitting indoors, squirming over a ciggie.
100 cool points.

I'm currently using my vape like a dummy too.

Good idea about a different flavour. I'll have to have a look.

My friend did the same recently. She quit 3 years ago, but has been going through a really hard time and bought a pack when the cravings got too much one night. She's now smoking 5 a day again, so try to resist the temptation of you can.

Is the friend that's coming over a non smoker?

My friend is a non-smoker. She hasn't touched one for 10 years and the smell alone now makes her ill - which is why I asked her to come round.
Can't have company throwing up because of me smelling. Very uncouth.

The squirming has calmed down ever so slightly, but I am itching to go to the shop.

Dont! Drink wine, eat crisps and chocolate. Get some nice dios with breadsticks.

Remember the first day you quit? How bloody horrible it was? That’s your tomorrow, if you smoke tonight. Don’t put yourself through it again, you’ve done the hard bit.

I have given up, and started again, several times.

The first cigarette tastes absolutely disgusting - seriously you will regret it massively and be cursing yourself.

Don't do it OP.

I did 4 years ago and it took me another 6 months to quit,which probably meant I spent about £1800 smoking fags I didn't want to smoke.

Keep chuffing your vape, think about something else and clean your teeth. Keep your hands busy (jigsaw or box model with dd) and just think how much better and cleaner you will feel in the morning.

Have told myself I will take up smoking again when I am 75 if I still want to. Smoking and day drinking. Will cause riots in the day centre me I reckon.

Don't do it! I am in a similar position. I seem to treat my vape like its gas and air, and it just doesn't hit the spot... when dd is in bed it won't be so bad but I REALLY want a cig RIGHT NOW! Ugh.

You've lasted 1 hour already since you first posted - we'll done!!!!

Not long now before DD is in bed (presumably) and then you can't go out.

Stay strong

Does your vape have a controlled wattage or can you umph it up a bit? That tends to get me through cravings having a big old hit at 60 watts. Good luck please don’t buy ciggies it’s not worth it! I promise

That's exactly what I'm waiting for - 20 minutes till bed then I can't leave.

It is abating - and I'm puffing on the vape like there's no tomorrow. I think I need to go back to the shop for a model that delivers a stronger 'hit.'
Thank you all for holding my hand.

@andonandoandonandon Thats exactly it. It doesn't hit the spot. No matter how long I drag on it, the craving just doesn't disappear.

@Frouby I'll probably be in the chair next to you creating chaos.

@TheDarkPassenger X-posted. I need to get one of the adjustable models
My one is just basic at the moment - fill it up and go!

Out of interest, which vape do you have?
Honestly, I rue the day I started smoking. It's disgusting, expensive, smelly and not the sort of example I want to be setting my dd!!!

Doesn't help that I am school holidays, recovering from surgery and generally cranky.

Weirdly, I didn't have a cig or want my vape at all when I was in hospital for two days for the surgery... it's weird, the cravings....

Yeah I started on one fo those but kept going back to the cigs. Hoenstly the investment is so worth it and you don’t even have to spend a fortune! Search baby alien vape on amazon they’re about £35 now, which is only 3 boxes of fags but lasts as long as you need it to :)

Just keep honking on your vape, think how proud you'll be tomorrow morning when you've resisted. I've been off them two years and when I had a week moment when pissed it was really fucking horrible and made me feel sick. You can do this

I still crave nicotine and it's been a decade. Especially in times of stress. You know it's about £10 a packet these days? Can you really justify spending that money? Before the guilt and the "I wish I hadn't" talk creeps in. Water and lots of ice help. Don't give in OP, it's really not worth it

Can you put a new coil in and use a higher strength nicotine juice? That might work? But I agree with PP, a decent bit of kit makes all the difference. Good luck.

Ill give you a good reason, I did this recently, I was so str3ssed after an absolutely horrendous set of events. Anyway one packet quickly turned into smoking and it took me 2 months and god knows how much money to stop again. And all the guilt that came with it did not help the stress one bit. Be strong

Oh yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong
(Strong)
I am invincible
(Invincible)
I am woman

Cannot remember who recorded this but it is so appropriate.