My neighbour died today. He was not old. It looks like an accidental overdose. I was called by his panicked lodger and I tried to see if I could save him. I think he had been dead a while although she said he was breathing moments before. I feel very sad seeing him like that and I feel almost like I have intruded on him. But I had to help out and try to comfort the lodger who was in a terrible state of shock and distress. I feel strangely calm despite this event and that doesn’t feel right. I felt a bit cold because I managed to check his body and call the police and talk to his friends etc. I don’t know why I’m writing on here. Just to share with strangers so I hope no one minds me writing it here. I really hope I’m not upsetting or offending anyone. I don’t have anyone to talk to apart from the children and I’m trying to keep them from any distress.