AIBU to ask you the weirdest thing that you've caught yourself thinking

[Motherofatruck]

Just walked upstairs and caught myself being a bit of weirdo... There's a mirror in the downstairs hallway, which I glanced at and saw myself looking back (obviously ). Walked upstairs then into the bathroom where there is another mirror. Caught myself pondering about if there was any possibility of there being another dimension where there's a version of myself and everything else in my life which is exactly mirroring everything I do. The more I thought about it, the more I felt like I had watched the mirror version of myself walk up the stairs and go into the bathroom... Like I wasn't watching myself, but a different version of me. Then I realised they were also watching me and felt slightly violated Spent quite a while after that scuttling past mirror's without making eye contact. Kind of hoping I can get some reassurance that I'm not the only one who freaks themself out sometimes.

I sometimes (not as often as I used to) feel as if I'm acting myself in a play. I don't feel quite 'real' sometimes. It's very odd.

sueelleker me too. I can feel quite detached at times.

I was walking down the hall in my home the other day and I got this feeling it wasnt really my home. Very odd.

Gaaah don't talk to me about mirrors I've been there.

If I could kill exh and not get caught...
Lay awake nights pondering this...

I sometimes become very aware of my own existence.
I realise that everything is real and everything I do is completely down to me.

I used to feel like that a lot when I was young.

😂😂
Have you been watching The OA? I had lots of strange thoughts after I did 🤔

@sueelleker and @LarryGreysonsDoor have a combination of both of these at the same time , can’t explain how . Glad it’s not just me

I too get a feeling of "this is real, this is my life". I'll find myself calling to my DP and like "he's real, he's my partner" as if I have to remind myself. I'll be in a meeting at work and suddenly realise that I am a professional and have a professional job and I have responsibilities. It's weird and so hard to explain how it feels, it's like being on a set course and being able to freeze and take a moment to remember that it's all real and you did it

Have you read 'The yellow wallpaper'?

I used to have thoughts like this when I was in my late teens. I also had two experiences where I saw myself from outside and above - the first was the night after I came out of hospital following a minor procedure under general anesthesia, and probably a side effect, the other time I think I freaked myself out, plus probably having consumed far too much caffeine and had too little sleep, due to a level essay deadlines and bad time management! I was also reading all sorts back then and written fiction has always got under my skin in a way films don't.

I had to consciously stop myself from going down certain thought allys though - it did seem mentally unhealthy!

I have had weird moments since childhood. I used to call them 'floaty' it's like I'm hovering above myself, watching me doing things that I know I'm doing but it doesn't feel like me that's doing them.

What if I'm the only individual with actual life/ consciousness and everyone else is part of a construct?

Even worse, what if someone else is the only individual with actual life / consciousness and I'm just a bit-part in their construct?

@TheFirstOHN

“What if I'm the only individual with actual life/ consciousness and everyone else is part of a construct?”

Yep have that one too! And when I’m not with other people in my life they don’t really exist and aren’t actually doing anything at all

I started having these thoughts in adolescence, so well before The Truman Show was released, but that is the closest thing in popular culture to what I mean.

Somewhere on another planet in another universe is me living a different life. Odd.

Oh just going to say Truman show.
I distinctly remember looking at my arms and thinking these are the only arms you’re ever going to have.
For some reason really freaked me out.
This is it this reality

As a teen I had a real paranoia that either English was only spoken by people when I could hear. And as soon as I was out of earshot everyone spoke something else.

Also I would worry that I was in a real life Truman Show situation. To the point it put me off doing certain things! Just teen embarrassment I guess.

Although sometimes I do still feel self conscious of talking to myself or singing by myself. Just in case.

Oh shit! Just RTFT and other people had the Truman show thing too!!!

I'm gutted my husband is out as now I realise I've never told him about it and I want to ask if he did too!

Why we get so angry about straws and then spend actual money on buying bin bags which go straight into the bin...

Sorry, mine was a bit weird...

I sometimes think, what's the point, why are we all here? What did this but of ground look like 100yrs ago and is it better or worse? Is this really what we wanted? How would you set up the first ever government? What's the fucking point? Will someone tell us when we die? #morbid

When I see an empty stretch of road that I need to cross, I sometimes wonder what would happen to me if there was an invisible car on it and I was crossing the road presuming it was car-free.

Also, there's a wooden jetty that juts into the sea near where we live. I often walk down there at night, and it's so pitch black looking out towards the horizon, I think about sea monsters looming over me in the dark without me knowing.

A couple of times in my life I've been convinced that the scene would replay in the future but with me in the other role. The one time I remember was when I was talking to an elderly lady in a doorway at church. I saw the episode play out from the side, and was convinced that in years to come there'd be a repeat of the conversation but I'd be the old lady talking to a young child. It felt stranger than it sounds.

I zoned out once when driving and copped onto myself just before I hit a car 😬 then I started thinking that if I’d hit the car I’d be dead and would it really be that bad???!?!? Life is a bit shite anyway?!?! I promptly made an appointment with my gp and broke down telling him all about it and worrying that I was suicidal and hadn’t even realised it! (Ffs!). He told me not to worry and it’s common (apparently). Anyway, I’m still here, I think I convinced myself I was having a mini breakdown 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I keep thinking what is the point of worrying about anything as we are all just going to die anyway.

Is it wrong that I just want to say 47?