AIBU to ask you the weirdest thing that you've caught yourself thinking

[Motherofatruck]

Just walked upstairs and caught myself being a bit of weirdo... There's a mirror in the downstairs hallway, which I glanced at and saw myself looking back (obviously ). Walked upstairs then into the bathroom where there is another mirror. Caught myself pondering about if there was any possibility of there being another dimension where there's a version of myself and everything else in my life which is exactly mirroring everything I do. The more I thought about it, the more I felt like I had watched the mirror version of myself walk up the stairs and go into the bathroom... Like I wasn't watching myself, but a different version of me. Then I realised they were also watching me and felt slightly violated Spent quite a while after that scuttling past mirror's without making eye contact. Kind of hoping I can get some reassurance that I'm not the only one who freaks themself out sometimes.

Yes, I did read somewhere that after somewhere between 50-100 years after you die that it is like you never existed and know one will remember you.

Another thought that I've possibly spent to much time thinking about (not necessarily weird, but interesting)... How everyone sees colours differently. What I see and call the colour 'blue' could be completely different to what other people see when they see the colour 'blue'. I wonder if their blue is the same as my purple or green, or if they see some other colour that I don't have a name for. But they have labelled that colour as blue because that's what they were taught.

I think I’ve found my people on here!
I often wonder what if you love your life through, then when you die you start all over again with your memory erase and keep loving your own life over and over again until you get it right . Suppose sort of like Groundhog Day but you live it right through without remembering any of it and have no idea how many times you’ve done it. This could be the first time I’ve done this or the 10,000th

@Motherofatruck I’ve thought that re colours too, my green is someone else’s black, etc , but they have the right labels for us to use and know that they’re different. You described it better!

I also see days of the week as colours (Monday red, Tuesday blue, Wednesday green, Thursday orangey, Friday brown, Saturday white, Sunday purple)

I also wonder that about colours.

I often ponder what my dog thinks of the car. Like it’s this magic box that you go in, get lulled to sleep, then wake up somewhere totally different

@overnightangel I'm glad it's not just me! I find it really interesting that you see the days of the week as colours... Not something I experience, but you're not alone! www.spectator.co.uk/2012/01/what-colour-is-wednesday/

@IDontDrinkTea I think the same thing about babies! Wonder what is going through their mind when they wake up somewhere completely different to where they fell asleep...

I often find myself almost compelled to spin the driving wheel while driving at 70mph, or hurl myself off high places, or jump in front of a train. I'm not remotely depressed or suicidal - it's something to do with being so afraid of doing a thing that you just want to get it over with.

Quite common apparently.

Motherofatruck, I wonder this about babies all the time too. I wonder if mine dreams,& what does he dream about? Does he feel freaked out waking up somewhere different all the time?

Tawdry, and I do this too! Or if I'm by a bridge with someone, or the top of a tall building I get this huuuuge urge to push them off.

Raffy, you're taking it a step more homicidal there! Hopefully it's just that your greatest fear is not death but hurting another person?

Hopefully...

@Raffy2019 I really hope I don't know you in real life and unwittingly go up a tall building with you

I get the wanting to jump off a cliff/in front of a train thing and the fear that I might actually do it in a moment of madness.

I also think a lot about parallel universes and reincarnation. I watched the Black Mirror Bandersnatch and got the ending where his friend jumps off the balcony because he is convinced he will get another life like in a video game and it massively freaked me out to the extent where I was dreaming about it and thinking about it a lot because I've often had idle thoughts like that (I'm not suicidal!).

Raffy - I get the urge to push other people in front of a train that are standing to close to the edge! Obviously I would never do it!!! Another one I get is the urge to push everyone over in super market check out queues and run put without my shopping when I'm feeling impatient! Again I'm really not homicidal and I would consider myself quite sane overall!

Following on from the idea that when we look at the stars, we are actually looking into their past (because of how far away they are): I've often wondered if we developed super-fast space travel and put various mirrors floating around in space - could we then point super-powerful telecopes at them from Earth and watch our own planet (but in the past!)

I sometimes wonder if it's possible that entities/aliens exist that move faster than the speed of light, because it seems to me that there would be no way we could ever be aware of them (wouldn't show up on camera/video, etc), although they would be aware of us - like rocks, or those infinitely-slowly moving sea creatures.

I also sometimes feel like I'm on a pre-determined train track (of life), and get the urge to do something completely weird and unexpected - just to shock any spying supernatural beings.

I feel kinda normal now after reading this!

I often have to remind myself that I have to go and do the housework/cook dinner etc as I'm a grown up and there's no one else to do it.

When going through an extremely emotionally traumatic period, I used to think life was just a pointless game and I was pretty pointless, but then I thought if I'm pointless so is everyone else and they don't think they're pointless so why should I feel like that about myself.

Spent a lot of time when a child pondering if we're all in an ant farm type thing and higher life forms are studying us .

on a recent long journey by car I noticed a fly on the inside of the window, i found myself wondering if his fly family from where he came from would miss him and if he would fit it with the other flies in the area he was unwittingly moving to

Nothing odd about that, Mr JellyBean. I have a spider living in my wing mirror, and I worry that if I drive somewhere and he decides to go for a walk, the local spiders might reject him or attack him.

When I was very young my mum had left the book she was reading in the front room. I knew (Can't remember how, read the back???) it was a horror story. On the front cover was a picture of a girl with long blond hair and blue eyes. However, the top of her head had been peeled (Not bloody or brains, like a picture of her had been peeled.). I remember thinking, 'That girl is me. I'm that girl!' and feeling terrified that I was going to be stuck in that picture forever, stuck in the horror of it.

(I asked my mum, Is that girl me? And she scalded me and said of course not.)

I hope that makes sense, I've tried to describe as best I could!

Raffy2019
Motherofatruck, I wonder this about babies all the time too. I wonder if mine dreams,& what does he dream about?

(Bet my bold fails. ) I heard once that when you feel a lot of movement whilst pregnant, that the baby is asleep. This is because they haven't yet got the function that stops us out here from acting out our dreams in our sleep.

All of these make sense to me! I've started staring at random leaves now and just did a little jump in my seat to 'throw off the plan'

Hate large proper ocean going boats because it freaks me out too much the idea that there’s a mile of water underneath you full of whales, sea creatures and shipwrecks..... but I love long haul plane travel because of the weird sensation that you briefly don’t exist as you cross time zones and fly in perpetual night/ day. I ever love layovers in airports as it still feels timeless - a bit like being weightless but with time.

I sometimes wonder about the 'are people real if we can't see them thing' kind of like the tree in a field theory I guess.

I walked into my office today and everyone was busying themselves and talking, and I suddenly thought 'What if they're all actors and knew I was on my way back so had to look busy? How do I know when I left the room they didn't all just stop what they were doing and sit around waiting for me to come back?'

Fucking hell 😂

It's bad enough being in a boat on the deep ocean, where there is nothing but water below you for a long way.

But it would be even worse to be in space, where there is literally nothing below you for infinity. I realise that in space there is less of a concept of 'below' but I still don't like the idea of it.