To just ask for a chat

[letmerunfaraway]

I've snapped.

I've driven myself to the coast and I'm just sat here, alone in the car looking at the sea and trying not to cry.

Ive had enough.

I don't know what's wrong. Just everything. A whinging toddler. A husband who I am convinced doesn't care about me. A shithole of a house.

Everything. I just fucking hate my life.

You poor thing, you sound exhausted.

What’s happened today to get you to this point?

I did that a week or two ago. Drove off shouting at everyone and got to the end of the road not knowing where to go. I went to a local pub in the end, read the paper and sank a couple of wines. My husband guessed where i was (id turned my phone off) and cam and found me. He was sweet and gentle and just chatted to me and made it better an then drove me home.

I hope your husband talks to you calmly when you go home. It helps to just get away sometimes.

for you OP. Many people on here for a handhold or shoulder.

Sorry about my language there.

And thank you @WifOfBif for responding. I read you response and that set me off 😭. Me and H argued last night and the atmosphere today hasn't been great. DC woke up at 5:45 and H didn't get out of bed til 10:30.

I'm done in. I just want to run away. Into the arms of someone who loves me and appreciates how much I do for the family on top of working full time and cleaning everyone's shit up constantly.

And thank you to the others for responding to.

I've got nowhere to go really. I never like to go to my parents when I'm down or something has happened as they worry. Besides, my mum would probably lecture me anyway.

I've got hardly no friends. None that will listen.

My life is just crap. I wish I could rewind to being 11 and start again. Make more friends etc

OP, talk to us. We're listening and most of us have been there. Rant away and lots of experienced mums of toddlers will help you through. Is there somewhere nice you can go for a coffee there? Take time out for yourself and make plans to do that more often.

I can't really go anywhere. I left the house in a spur of the moment decision and I have PJ bottoms on as I was mid-housework. So I look a total mess. And I've cried

It isn't too late to make more friends. One or two good ones is all you need.

I don't even know what I'm trying to achieve by this post. I just wanted to let it out somewhere

Have you told your dh how you feel? Whilst it may be obvious how you feel, sometimes men need it spelling out in big simple terms!

Why not have a good cry? Sometimes it helps.

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way.

I’ve been in a terrible relationship. I had to leave, life is too bloody short.

I’m now in a wonderful relationship with a man who definitely does give a shit about me.

It can be better

Why don’t you go home and have an honest talk with dh?

It’s fine to just do a “let it all out” post. I think most of us have been there at one time or another! I don’t drive though so I’ve had to resort to stomping off to the little park down the road on occasion! I also don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a cry if you need to. If you don’t already, then maybe you need to carve out a little time for yourself going forward. I think we all need that.

Sending you some kind thoughts

We all feel like that sometimes. Hope you feel better soon

So sorry you’re having such a hard time, we are here if you want to talk about it all

Aww, poor you. Have a virtual & I'm going to give you a big > because I can see that you need one.

Keep talking to us, as much as you want to

have you spoken to dh since you left ? is your dc with him ?

Am sorry OP What bit of coast did you go to? It must feel like the end of the world right now but if you go back home and speak to your husband, you may find some changes will be made and things improve. Begin with small steps

I'm going to drive home soon. I've been sat for about 1.5 hours and haven't heard a thing!

No point going home to chat as he's heard it all before :(

Yes, toddler is with him at home

Another person listening here and sending you lots of positive thoughts - it's so shit getting to breaking point I know - keep talking on here when you get back home if it helps you, we are here ready to listen

I’m listening. toddler, husband, house everything feeling too much?

Whinging children bearable if you feel supported by DP. Sounds like DP is the problem. Sorry it has got to breaking point for you. What bit of coast did you go to?

Poor you, I hope you are ok xxx

Sorry you feel like this, it's shit.

At a similar point in life I started running (hadn't run since I was at school). Literally running away from it all each evening helped in so many ways.