Today began well. It was the last day of school and 3DC and I were all really excited to be going away on Monday until Friday. Only to the seaside, but we thoroughly deserve a break after a year of being absolutely broke and their dad deciding to go no contact with any of us. Luckily I paid for the holiday last year so all I had to pay for was petrol.
Yesterday our dog had an unexpected vet bill of £160 which was really frustrating as actually he was ExDPs dog, but he abandoned him as well as the DC and doesn't pay towards either. After the school run today, a dog lunged at mine for no apparent reason and bit his ear, causing another vet bill that I really can't afford. I got home and put the kettle on which tripped the electrics so I had to lug everything out of the under stairs cupboard to get to the fuse box.
Then I went to the toilet and discovered I'm having my first period in about three years (because of breastfeeding) and I have no san pro in the house. DD(2) and DD(5) and I walk to the shop and 5 yo trips over 3 times, then steps in dog poo on the way back on purpose 
Later we start driving to collect DD(10) from school and the car breaks down in front of someone's driveway, a mile from school and I have no pushchair in the car. We're half hour late to collect DD as I struggle up the hill with 2 yo on my shoulders and dragging anti-walking 5 yo along. We were due to collect our food shopping before 4pm but the supermarket is 3 miles from school. I call a taxi and walk to the cash point, only to discover another unexpected bill has gone out leaving me with £4.76 to my name.
We trudge back to the car and wait for the AA, getting a load of abuse from the man whose driveway the car was in front of (I had left a note to explain and apologise but that wasn't good enough, apparently.) We get towed to the garage just as they close. They can't look at it until Monday at the earliest so we're already definitely going to miss some of our holiday, and frankly I've no idea how I'm going to pay for the repairs - if it's more than the £200 I have left on my credit card then we'll be without a car altogether and struggle massively. Of course, I filled the tank with petrol ready for holiday this morning...!
The garage is a mile from home and I can feel my san pro start to leak so I have to tie my jumper round my waist and freeze all the way home. When we arrive home it's freezing, the boiler has packed up. DDog has been sick on the floor and DD2 somehow managed to fall asleep on my shoulders so has only just gone to bed.
Finally about to get into bed after a completely shit day and my friend messages me to ask if I know ExDP has been promoted and has a new car. I open my emails and find out that the agency I've been working from home for no longer require my services. Seriously what else can go wrong?!
Honestly I'm fed up of the struggle of life. Today was obviously particularly shit but every day feels like bad news or luck constantly. I have three healthy DC which I'm exceptionally grateful for but I can barely afford to eat or live. They are so happy and resilient and make me so proud but I feel like I'm letting them down. I didn't think it was possible to be more broke than I was, but without a job I clearly will be. I've tried so hard to look for term time work so I can afford childcare but it just doesn't exist around here.
The DC went to bed optimistic that we can get the car fixed on Monday then go straight to holiday. I'm dreading disappointing them 