I had to have my dog put to sleep. Quite a shock as she was not old and her condition rapidly deteriorated. My partner refused to come with me to spend any time with her beforehand nevermind while she was PTS. I did it all alone. He said he was uncomfortable with the situation and didn't want to see her breathe her last breath. He was not in work that day. It was not exactly an experience I was hoping to go through, at least for another 10 years. Bittersweet to have been given the opportunity to spend those last moments with her. Some people don't get that chance so I was grateful and would not have missed it for the world. I spent 3 hours with her kissing and hugging and talking to her and she listened to every word, looked at me with sheer love but she knew what was coming and she spun to the door every time the vet came in to check on us, she was hoping it was him, I know it.
I'm having trouble getting over his stance though, fair enough if you're uncomfortable being there for the big moment but the lack of support for me as well as not wanting to see her one last time, i can't get over. I had to pull over on the way home as I couldn't see through my tears, i was distraught. He could've drove me there and home at the very least. I had to choose her casket and he's moaning about what I chose. He wanted to pack her things away an hour after I got back, I'm was not ready I just feel he's been totally heartless towards both the dog who loved him to bits and to me who needed his support more than anything. What if I had said the same as him? Poor little buggars life would have ended with none of her family around. Fwiw he has a history of not coming to things as a couple just because he doesn't fancy it.
AIBU to fucking hate him?