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to feel so worthless? AIBU to ask what your ex said to you when you split

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airelle · 12/01/2019 20:28

I was with ex-DP for 3 years. All was going well until he lost his job and hit the bottle. He finished things with me after waking me up at 3am when he came home steaming. He looked me dead in the eye and said "you'd do anything for me but I wouldn't do anything for you". He packed me a bag and told me to get out - I had to sleep in the car until the morning. He then said he didn't want to talk about it.

Then he said something which keeps ringing in my head: "airelle, I would have cheated on you by now if the sex wasn't so good" Sad

my friends can't seem to understand why that's so bad. I suppose it's because it makes me feel like an object who fulfilled a need for him but who he had no respect for.

This was 18 months ago now, AIBU to still feel worthless?

What's the worst thing your ex has said to you and how did you get overit?

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Smellbellina · 12/01/2019 22:25

Called me an ‘ugly mong’, i’d had a stroke and was wonky at the time.

We’re actually good friends now. I’ve forgiven him, but not forgotten!

linda30 · 12/01/2019 22:32

I was with a guy who would just lie and manipulate me (and many other people going by his stories) on a regular basis and each time I caught him out on this he made me feel like I was paranoid, insufferable and "pathetic." He would criticise my driving skills, my music taste, my cooking skills - usually in a calm, condescending way but occassinally full on outbursts. I feel all of this was worse than just being told something blunt and terrible once. It was just a steady drip of madness inducing behaviour that changed me into an anxious wreck. I internalised all his comments and thought myself clingy and worthless for years. My now-husband could not believe when I told him. He says I am the most easy going and independent woman he has ever met... Please don't internalose what your ex had said. He clearly is disturbed.

Nodrama999 · 12/01/2019 22:32

I was told I looked disgusting, like a 12 year old boy.

I just laughed because it was him who wanted to sleep with “a 12 year old boy”

AnoukSpirit · 12/01/2019 22:42

I still haven't had the confidence to date after this.

The Freedom Programme might help you rebuild it. It covers the differences between healthy and abusive relationships - and how to spot the early warning signs that a man is abusive.

Www.freedomprogramme.co.uk

I'm really sorry for the awful things that have been done to you. I believe things can get better for you though. Flowers

dottybutterfly · 12/01/2019 22:44

Not an ex but my partner said to me " I wanted to ask you to marry me but couldn't because of his mum " ( huge back story but after this I was upset he shouted at me saying I had post natal depression! I might have done but his family had been quite nasty to me after having my lo xx

dottybutterfly · 12/01/2019 22:44

That was over a year ago!! Still no proposal xx

importantkath · 12/01/2019 23:06

@longvodkalover10 what an absolute twat. I am angry on your behalf. Please don't give that fucker any headspace. He is a twat.

SugarinaPlum · 12/01/2019 23:19

For a laugh...
Had been OLD, going quite well, met up a few times then after a few weeks suddenly went quiet. Then asked to meet up, I said what’s the point, you’re obviously back with your ex. He swore this wasn’t the case.
We met up, and almost shaking, he said to me in all seriousness “Iknow you think I haven’t been in touch because I was seeing my ex, I just want you to know that’s really not the case. I’d never do that, to see two women at the same time, would be such a terrible thing to do..to HER!”
Told him to fuck right off, he could not understand why I was annoyed.

Ourmaud · 13/01/2019 00:49

I’d have said “at least someone enjoyed the sex”.
My abusive ex ended things with the words “you’re a good fuck but you have nothing about you. (And followed that with) You’ll never get anyone like me again”
Thank fuck I didn’t get anyone like him again but his words destroyed my self image and confidence for a long time. I now have a lovely dh who thinks I’m funny and brave, he actually fancies me still, enjoys my company and is proud to be with me. He’s truly my best friend.
Once you remove yourself from the mindset of not being good enough you will be amazed at how wonderful your life becomes, whether you’re single or you find someone new. Good luck op x

Britneyspearsatemytoast · 13/01/2019 01:45

My ex of 2 years broke up with me with the parting words ‘you will always be my favourite’. When I found out he was getting married to someone else 4 weeks later, I demanded an explanation and he called me a c*nt and told me I didn’t deserve any explanation!! UTTER F CF!!

Seniorschoolmum · 13/01/2019 01:57

Op, all I see from your post is that your ex was a worthless prat who doesn’t deserve a family and doesn’t justify another thought.

It doesn’t say anything bad about you at all. Flowers

Rochelaise18 · 13/01/2019 02:15

Broke up with my fiance when I discovered he had been cheating on me. He then proceeded to contact all my friends he knew and turn it round to me cheating on him. This despite him not wanting me to know he was cheating on me because "I have too much respect for her and don't want her hurt."

callmekitten · 13/01/2019 03:01

I was told that someone could murder me and nobody would care or even miss me

pineapplebryanbrown · 13/01/2019 03:20

That I had long, skinny tits. I was 22 and looking back, they were pretty amazing as many men said afterwards. He had an acorn dick.

artisanscotcheggs · 13/01/2019 03:25

May he fall penis first into a pit of horribly infected needles. 💉💉💉💉

Rtmhwales · 13/01/2019 03:49

My STBXH said "I should never have left my parents' house. I cry all the time and wish I could go back. I want to live with them until they die and take care of them forever" when he initiated divorce talk. Mid thirties. Parents in early fifties. Right before he left and I found out I was pregnant with our DS who he's never met because why have adult responsibilities when you're living with mommy and daddy forever.

oiiiiiii · 13/01/2019 04:05

"in my next relationship I'm going to go with a nice girl."

Cheeky cunt.

Two weeks after I left he turned up at my new flat with tears in his eyes about how he'd "not realised how much I did for him". Yes, go and find yourself this mythical "nice girl" who will do more than I did with daily sex, three square meals a day, intl holidays all expenses paid, and bringing in 4x more than he did Hmm

This was the same arsehole who used my csa history to argue that I must be "bad" or have "enjoyed it", and therefore did I really think it was appropriate to have trauma symptoms?

I have moved on from it but my God, did he show me who he was.

madcatladyforever · 13/01/2019 04:32

Why do you feel worthless Airelle? He is the one who is worthless, he is a drunk and he treated you in a way no man should treat a woman.
You have no reason at all to feel bad and should hopefully find another man who is worthy of you next time.
Your ex clearly wasn't fit to even look at you.

Weenurse · 13/01/2019 04:33

@Rtmhwales does that mean his parents have not met your child as well? Does he pay child support at least?
How old is your child?

Sunkissedbeachdream · 13/01/2019 05:09

dotty, don't want to upset you, but are you sure it's a good idea to have a proposal from someone whose family have been nasty to you?
Being with my ex, and the nasty things he used to say, I thought there was something wrong with me, mainly because I didn't know that many men say all these disgusting things to their partners.

My friends/family all seemed to have happy relationships, and I regretfully didn't tell them about the vile things my ex said/did to me, because I was embarrassed, and he'd worn me down so much I believed the things he told me.

As well as my post above, he called me fat, ugly, useless cook, shit in bed, crap mother (because I asked him to help with our DC occasionally, and I apparently shouldn't have had kids if I couldn't look after them myself) , in fact, I don't think there is one disgusting word he hasn't called me.

I finally woke up to him when he turned violent, and it all came out to my family and friends, who were horrified. I had to beg my dad and brother not to beat ten bells of shit out my ex because of what he'd done to me, as they'd be in trouble with the Police

I so wish I'd have told people what he was putting me through, and I also wish we had MN so I could've realised that abusive men commonly say/do the same things to wear their partners down. I just hope that if there are women (or men) reading threads like this one on MN, they will realise it's not normal to be in a relationship where your partner puts you down.

Birdie6 · 13/01/2019 05:14

"My new girlfriend is 15 years younger than you. It's like being with a young virgin ".

I got the last laugh though. The "young virgin" now looks like a skinny old hag , and she's having to work to support them both since he had a heart attack and now can't work. Boo hoo.

Loveweekends10 · 13/01/2019 05:27

It makes me wonder why women bother having partners at all? Horrific! Had a gaslighting X but married to a lovely kind man now. They are out there. Promise.

Gina2012 · 13/01/2019 06:28

I won't repeat what he said to me on here, but I wrote it down and in the early days, when I missed his vile narcissism (because my self esteem was so low I thought that was all I deserved) I'd read his words over and over to stop me texting him

Never ever stay with anyone who is cruel

LotsToThinkOf · 13/01/2019 07:11

In the early days of new relationship I stupidly met up with my ex, it’s wasn’t a planned meet up but I offered him a lift home. During our 9 years together he’d treated me so badly and there had been so many rumours about him cheating, all of which he still denies to this day. He’d always behaved like the victim, crying about how I was determined to ruin our relationship by listening to rumours and my friends who hated him. I felt like I had to be with him.

In the car he tried to kiss me, I said no and he got really angry. I told him I was seeing someone and that it wasn’t fair that I was even giving him a lift home, let alone anything else. He said “that’s always been your fucking problem, you’re so fucking loyal” and then he got out of the car.

It’s stuck with me because yes, I am loyal, and I was very loyal to him when we were together. He clearly wasn’t, he’d had me worked out the whole time we were together and used it to manipulate me whilst doing whatever/whoever he wanted. That one sentence made me realise how much time I’d wasted and how stupid I’d been, it still upsets me 10 years later.

airelle · 13/01/2019 11:38

Seems like there's a lot of cruel bastards out there [flower]

Ex also stood over me shouting whilst I didn't move "you're like a fucking battered wife. Shout back! You're the only one who makes me like this"

@Gina2012 that's a good idea writing down what he said. I might do this today to get all the thoughts out of my head.

@oiiiiiii that is truly horrific. What an absolute creep. You obviously know that's a load of shit. What a fucking vile thing to even think let alone say. Bet whoever ended up with him his having a lovely old time Hmm

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