To post here. I need a hand hold. Is anyone up?

[hugsee]

Sorry..

This will seem pathetic.

I am emetophobic and have been sick about 7 times tonight and I feel so anxious and vile.

My have sent my darling OH downstairs to sleep as I would prefer to be alone.

I just want it over 

Im a used to be emetophobe too. My fear developed from my bulimic Mother constantly making herself sick and trying to make me sick once when little as my tummy hurt.

I used to try to hold it back and would have horrendous anxiety whenever anyone else was sick.

A combination of 2 pregnancies with horrendous ms that lasted pretty much the first two trimesters, then randomly for the last trimester. With baby and then toddler ds being sick and needing me. By the time dd came along I became pretty numb to it. I still hate actually being sick but am not as phobic when others are sick. I also was cured of my needle phobia during pregnancy, when I had to self inject dalteparin twice a day for the duration of both pregnancies.

Perhaps it might be worth trying hypnotherapy to help with your phobia later on. That doesn’t help now though.

A lot of the times when people are sick multiple times it's more mental than physical. You expect to be sick in a 'here we go again' way and so you are. When you get the urge next don't just stick your head over the toilet and let lose, just sit next to it for a few minutes and try to control the urge. After that it typically goes away and you will stop.

I have had Hypnotherapy and although it helped with anxiety after the sessions, ultimately the phobia was still there and still is.

I am emetophobic although it’s a lot less than it used to be. I went through a very long period as a teenager of hardly eating in case I was sick, but honestly, I found the thing that eased the phobia was... being sick. It doesn’t happen to me often (touch wood) and although it’s still horrible and scary it’s a little more bearable each time. Do you think the fact that you’re alive, awake, and dealing with the ordeal and will come out the other side may help a bit? You’re doing really well and it sounds like the worst is over

Hi OP- I have emetophobia and can understand how scared you must be right now! I've always found that on the rare occasions I have been sick the actual act of being sick was 100% less scary than I'd worked it up to be! Maybe think of it that way? It's not a negative thing, it's your body just sorting itself out. I found the anticipation and anxiety over whether or not I'd be sick a lot worse!

I'd prop yourself up, get some cosy blankets to wrap around yourself over the duvet if you're cold, keep a small light on so you're not completely in the dark and have a bucket/bin by the bed and try and get some sleep. Everything's worse when you're exhausted!

If you feel it's a stomach bug just confined yourself to that room for the next day or two and hopefully no one else in your family will get it.

Try this therapy work book too- it's amazing and worked wonders for me!
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Cure-Your-Emetophobia-Thrive-Research-backed/dp/0956516645

Sending health and good vibes. Get some sleep lovely.

You poor thing! Just try to push through because I'm sure you'll be better very soon.

CBT cracked it for me, I still don't like the idea of being sick but it is now on a much more normal level. I had two lots of CBT, the first was unsuccessful but the second worked and I have been better for about 8 years now.

oh op im so sorry.
try not to associate why or how this bout of vomiting has happened.remember it could be a number of things and it can be dangerous to someone with your condition to associate foods or fear of eating with it as this spirals into thing like eating disorder and you don't need that on top of it.so don't otherthink the whys.just get yourself lots of comfort and compassion to get through it the best you can.
you can do this.you have been so strong already to even manage 7 times.and often the panic your building in your head only makes it worse than the action itself.that doesn't help I know when you so scared.
your safe and your ok.you have support and hear and at home by the dh.itl be ok I promise.
you are safe.
do you know why this started.to get to stopping it you need to no where it came from or when?
its a real fear for you so don't ever think your pathetic.
mindfulness really helps.
could you sit up in bed or somehwre you feel nice and get nice cd or classic fm on.radio 2 usually calming this time of night.
try and close you eyes.dont tell yourself I need sleeeeeeeep!just say youll be resting your eyes now and see if it comes.
or youtube body scans or guided meditation for anxiety/sleep/panic.there are some great ones on there.
hot water bottle.
when you feel able enough or your tummy can try little bits of cry toast or rich teas.your body will only perpetuat feeling wrose if its then in pain and hungry but I know you cant think of that now.
try to keep you mind off the fear and fear of it.keep distracted with magazine or colouring.
if you were a you without this condition what would you tell yourself.how would you hold and you and make you feel better.
your ok hun.you will be ok.big hugs.

Hope you feel better soon. Midwife here - please keep a close eye on your blood sugars - as you know, being ill can throw them off, this is especially true in pregnancy when you have got other hormones to add to the mix. Be vigilant and give antenatal triage a call if can't control sugars with the vomiting.

as you are at bigger risk of DKA in pregnancy. Not to scare you - just ensuring you know how to avoid!

Sounds really tough OP, hope you have been able to get some rest. Let us know how you get on

Hello everyone

I am so very grateful for all your support, you truly helped so much.

I have been in bed all day apart from getting up with diarrhoea. I have slept a lot. I have not eaten anything just drinking water (which was still going straight through me)

I am so anxious that DP and DD are going to catch this. I have not even seen my DD today and have basically quarantined myself in my bedroom (luckily I have an en-suite)

I know now where it came from. DD and I were at friends on Saturday and her whole family have come down with it too. Her baby had diarrhoea when we were there.

I am so scared still. Scared to eat too, even though I have no appetite.

You’ve done brilliantly riding this out, well done

Oh @hugsee that's awful.

You've done amazingly well to get through it, and, as others have said, this too will pass.

Not long now until you are feeling better, and the symptoms stop. When this is over, reflect and give yourself a huge pat in the back.

Ah, at least you know where it came from! Be reassured you'll most likely feel much better tomorrow afternoon!

Hopefully your DD won't have it as I'm sure she'd be showing symptoms by now!

You've done amazingly to get through it! I know I'd be in a mess too!

Oh no, I hope you're feeling better soon.

How are your sugar levels, given that you're not eating, and clearly fighting a bug of some sort? Do you have a pump? They're a godsend in these situations.

I haven't tested my sugar level for a while. I guess I should soon. No pump, just bog standard pen.

I have just managed to bleach my en-suite. I am now stressing about what else needs cleaning. I could do with a shower and hair wash but I don't think I have the energy.

I keep messaging my poor DP (he is down stairs) asking how is is and to check on our DD

Honestly this has been MN at its best. I feel so lucky to have lovely people supporting me. When I know on paper it all seems ridiculous.

Hugs op, I have the same phobia

You have done great xx get well soon xx

So sorry you're still feeling rubbish, but you've done so well to get this far. It sounds like you're taking all of the sensible precautions. Try not to worry about cleaning or eating until you feel up to it, and then just start slowly with bland foods in small quantities - dry toast, crackers, that sort of thing. My son's diabetic and we were cautioned to look out for lows and ketones when he's ill, especially with stomach bugs, so I'd definitely check your blood sugar soon. You are doing so well. You're nearly there

I have had a bit of toast today and have had no diarrhoea or sickness. I have bleached my house.
I am wondering how long I should stay away from my DD? She is only 3 and I miss her. I gave her a cuddle this morning after a thorough teeth clean and shower.

I used to have emotophobia and remember how awful it was. I dreaded vomiting and had a friend who was often travel sick and that used to stress me out no end.
Glad you're feeling a bit better and managing to eat. A dose of appendicitis cured my emotophobia....I threw up that often that suddenly it wasn't a scary big deal anymore! For me the loss of control scared me, the not knowing when it could happen etc. Fortunately my dd is rarely ill, possibly 2 bugs in her life (she's 10) - I can't say I'm great at cleaning it up but I don't also throw up at the sight of it anymore!
Look after yourself and remember nothing bad lasts forever

The not knowing is a definite part cause and the feeling out of control. It has been nice to hear some people have got through it x

How are you feeling now? Hope you have recovered

I am feeling much better. Just very tired and weak. Still resting! Thank you for asking.
I am just anxious about my DD getting poorly too. I miss her, DP has been doing my usual jobs as I have tried to keep a distance so I don't pass it on (unless she already has it waiting to appear :/ )
I can hear him reading her a bedtime story downstairs in her bedroom 

Really glad you are feeling better! It’s so awful but you’ve done the right thing absolutey. I’m sure she will be fine and you can make up for lost time when you feel up to it, she will be extra excited to spend time with you.