to be f***ing sick of it?

[Mich0027]

Fking sick of working all day, coming home, doing chores, being tired, paying bills, moaning, repeat repeat repeat ARGHHHHH
No point to this post but is anyone else fking sick of it too?
Stop the world I want to get off

@Foundmyvoice

I'm not made to be a matriarch. I've not been "duped" or "conned", it's just not for me. I love my job. I'll take the maternity leave that makes the most financial sense when I need to in April, then I'll be counting down the days till I can go back to work. :)

Sorry fellow ranters I got ducking sick of MN and took my sorry arse off to bed. I've woke up in a bastarding mood but I've decided I must be coming down with something and have reverted back to primal emotions.
Some top rants above. Happy Tuesday everyone xx

Ducking
I can't even swear properly
FML

Oh god! YES! I almost posted something very similar last week! I’ve since hired a cleaner, I was SO fed up of the house being a shit hole and constantly doing thank less chores!

It hit me the other day that this is pretty much what being an adult woman is! I’m mid twenties so for the last year or two it’s felt like ‘just need to get settled in’- ‘just need to get into a cleaning routine’ - ‘just need to get used it it- then it’ll be so much easier’.

Nope- this is life- doesn’t get easier- sucks!

Oh god no being a SAHM has been slowly killing me. If I wasn't studying I would have completely lost it.

The all day monotony of pretending to care about sodding race cars, watching the shower of crumbs as they jump up from the table, cheering on as they use a fork and somehow still smear sauce all over their own limbs. The licking. The sneezes. Why do I have to be covered in someone else's saliva so fucking frequently?

I would love to be at work, being paid, having normal human conversations that don't involve the 'hilarity' of faecal matter or Lightning McQueen. I would like to wear something white. I would like to not have to do as much physical nonsense as dancing/carrying/chasing. I would like to use the toilet on my own sometimes. I cannot wait until next year when that might be a reality.

And I cannot fucking stand this cold. I will be miserable for the next however many months. I have Raynaud's phenomenon and it fucking hurts to go outside and I don't fucking drive.

God, I never swear irl, that felt quite nice.

Not all people have jobs they enjoy.

Some women hate being SAHMs.

Being a SAHM was the most amazing experience for me.

Lived in a small village ( I had a car) locals were friendly, playgroups, activities and toddler groups nearly every day.

Woodland walks, long hazy picnics in summer, great community.

I trained as a breastfeeding counsellor, and when the kids started school I became a school governor, started to get really fit at the gym, started my own business from home.

Honestly had a ball.

walk in the forest, take photographs, potter about. I've had such a shit couple of years I've taken to watching horror movies every single night as escapism. As a result now too afraid to walk in a wood, forest or any quiet area!!! Duh me! 🤣🤣🤣 empty woods are scary!

Personally I found that at the end of my mat leaves (both about 14 months) that I was desperate to get back to work. I’m part time with a teeny commute & a cleaner but my god the monotony of life with small children is still hard to get used to. And if you go rouge & abandon the routine/structure you still pay for it.

rogue not rouge!

Fucking yes, really fucking hate it too!

Very grateful of course for everything I have

This is why I loved my NCT group, there was no performance parenting it was all stuffing out faces with chips saying how shit it is! They have all left me ☹️

Stupid Brexit means no one will hire me as I am a foreigner (I assume, its never taken me long to get a job before)

I was doing an online assessment last night and I was doing so well and the fucking wifi cut out. I almost cried.

Know the feeling, I was in your place for years, very unhappy.
However it does improve, good things are ahead I promise you.

I think unless you have a large disposable income where you can have a lot of weekends away, holidays and do a lot of exciting activities then life is shit boring.

Oh yes I know the feeling. In fact I felt so fed up yesterday that I have called in sick today (I genuinely don’t feel that well) and I’m now back in bed with a cup of tea and the iPad. Some days you just have to give in to it.

See we went away with the youngest for a city break during half term, eldest didn’t want to come (he’s 4) & it was such hard work.

I’m looking forward to the christmas hols as I’m tto but equally know there will be no lie ins. It’s definitely better to be out doing things but then I find i’m exhausted in the evening & sometimes you just need to be in the house & chill.

I clearly remember the first time I realised this, when I was 6. I thought how long life was going to be and...it's just not good.

Yep! I cannot wait for some time off over Christmas

YANBU to be fucking sick of it. I am not, but I am definitely mildly disgruntled at it. See, I can't even work up the enthusiasm for a proper strong emotion.

I need a chaise longue on which to experience 'ennui' properly.

I have a different perspective.

I have been widowed in my 20s, been abused, homeless- and worse.

It's because of my hardships that I grasp life with both hands.

Sorry you've had such a rough time speakout OP Can you afford or have the time to give yourself a treat or two? Something you'd really love to buy or do that's just for you, only you? Or are you even past that? I'm like you with the dark nights. Absolutely hate them!

Thanks @paffuto I'm having an unjustifiable pity party is all. I'm actually very blessed in life. I just wish sometimes things were different or i could change things but I can't, for now x

Mich0027. I do get where you are coming from and I think that I am similar to you, Kismetjayn. I have 3 dcs and one is a baby; the sleep deprivation is relentless and with no extended family to speak of, I currently have no life outside of the home. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely grateful for everything that I do have; reasonable health, lovely if messy home, family, helpful dh but I do feel sometimes that that I have the enabler role as someone else mentioned and that I enable everyone else in the family and take whatever is left over. Tonight my eldest dc is being particularly difficult, almost nasty and I am wondering about this whole parenting lark, though I wouldn't be without them, I could just do with a break; time to have a bit of fun without being weighed down with responsibility. Unfortunately, I don't have many friends and I don't work currently, so limited in social outlook My hobby (wont reveal because it could be outing) keeps me sane, I would love to meet more like-minded people involved with this, but at the moment I am limited (mainly due to baby) and hopefully a more fuller social life will come about once I can eventually get out a bit more. I was due to go to a social gathering on Friday night and even this has been cancelled at the last minute (I haven't been out socially in the evening for, well I can't remember when and so I was looking forward to it, needless to say, I am feeling cross and sorry for myself right now). All in all, I haven't anything to complain about and I am all for seizing life and making changes but I am just feeling totally disempowered right now with baby (still breastfeeding) and feeling taken for granted, which is fuelling the same old, same old feeling; I need a bit more fun in my life somehow; my 'self' has been mostly sacrificed for the time being; I am determined to protect the little bit of me that I have left.

Sorry for the epic post! Feel better now for having ranted a little x

Yes,,same here,,ive had enough. Shall we all meet at the airport and run away?

Is it a British thing?

At least in milder climates in countries with some space, you could go for a walk in the country or seaside.

Here there is fuck all for most people..