Eight days ago, the human equivalent of a British bulldog smashed her way out of my vagina. I had an episiotomy and then tore in a sort of star shape - think shredded labia, clitoral stitches, the lot. I lost a litre of blood and spent two hours in theatre repairing the damage, before going into some kind of weird shock that froze my jaw in place and necessitated heated blankets to bring me back round again.
Which brings me to today. I am still utterly broken. I can’t pee sitting down (can’t empty my bladder at all unless I stand) can’t walk far enough to leave the house, taking a bath is exhausting enough that it necessitates painkillers first and a sleep to recover after. I am bored and frustrated and my toddlers are turning feral. Apparently everything is healing nicely and I can tell that the swelling is reduced, but I am still utterly incapable of functioning at a normal level, even on paracetamol and ibuprofen. I can’t take codeine.
I’d love some insight as to how long it may take to feel ‘normal’ again. And I’ll gladly take sympathy and head-pats too.