Hello all,
Please stick with me here, I could really use an outside opinion.
So I changed my 3mo DD's name after I registered her. I am feeling that this decision has made me appear immature and flaky and I can't remember a time when I've felt more embarrassed.
I had a lot of things going on in pregnancy i.e. severe anxiety/apathy and names weren't at the forefront. Had a name I loved, but didn't use it due to social anxiety (coworker had a DD named this). So we basically picked a name out of the hat.
Things quieted down, I got some sleep, got on medication, coworker resigned... things got a lot more clear and I realised how silly I had been. It had gotten to the point where her current name made me cringe and I wanted nothing more than for her to be the name I loved. DH agreed and we changed it.
But now I'm so embarrassed about the ordeal that I am avoiding family functions. My mum is having the extended family round for dinner next week and I told her I couldn't make it, even though I desperately wanted to go and show off DD. I'm so ashamed of myself. I imagine someone saying "Oh look at (old name) isn't she darling" and me having to explain myself. Mum is being a bit difficult about it and refuses to help us tell family we've changed it. I think of having to explain this to people and their reactions and my heart starts beating out of my chest.
Can you all be completely honest with me? It's what I need right now. Is this situation something you'd consider "odd"? Should I feel this embarrassed and daft? What would you think if someone had told you they changed their DD's or DS's name a few months in? It would help to see how people would view this as a whole so I can maybe see how to approach it with people.
Thanks a lot.