AIBU?
To think I'm heading for a breakdown here?
antz345 · 18/10/2018 11:58
Everyday is a battle.
I don't want to get up,I seriously don't know how I'm gonna get through each day.
I feel so exhausted and tearful.
I'm freezing or hot.
I'm scared to go out,I can't see things ever getting better in my life.
Nobody cares.
I'm scared and I don't know why.
Everything's been building up for months now.
I feel sick and no appetite.
Pains in my stomach.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
How do I get through this.
Confusedbeetle · 18/10/2018 11:59
You must get help and talk to someone, friends family or health professional
NorthEndGal · 18/10/2018 12:01
It sounds like you need to make a doctor's appointment to talk about what's happening.
Gramgram · 18/10/2018 12:03
Same as above, talk to a GP so make an appointment and if you need help doing that get a friend to help you. Hope you start to feel better soon. Take care.
Sunnyday1203 · 18/10/2018 12:13
Yes talk to the GP, there is great support out there. There is no shame in asking for help. And keep talking on here, MNetters are great.
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:19
I have booked myself a counselling apt on November 2nd at 9.
Do you think that will help me?
I hope so
NoSquirrels · 18/10/2018 12:23
Please get an emergency appointment with your GP.
Print out your OP and hand it to them.
You sound extremely anxious and so you probably need medication first, then counselling.
Please please see your GP.
leighb23 · 18/10/2018 12:25
I know exactly how you feel. A few months ago I posted on here about the problems I was having and had looked into how to end it all. I was talked into going to my GP, who gave me antidepressants (after talking about it a year or more ago). Our health authority runs a service where you can self refer for therapy. I had to wait from April to September, but am having fortnightly sessions now. I feel, generally, heaps better.
PLEASE go and see your GP X
LifesABeachCoaster · 18/10/2018 12:29
Hi OP
What is your situation at the moment? What is going on in your life?
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:30
What anti depressants did they give you?
I'm scared to take them as I've heard all about the bad side effects.
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:32
I've got nothing in my life that's good.
I don't know if I'm depressed or just low.
My mums friend hugged me in the street today and I burst into tears.
That's not normal is it?
Sunnyday1203 · 18/10/2018 12:33
OP anti depressant DO work, Like others have said call GP now they can help you.
NoSquirrels · 18/10/2018 12:35
Lots and lots and lots and lots of people are on antidepressants without side effects. Lots and lots and lots, honestly.
They don’t need to be a big dose, or a long term solution but they will help equalise you so that the anxiety recedes and you can work out what will make things better long term.
Please go to the GP.
recklessruby · 18/10/2018 12:40
Anti depressants do work. Please call your GP urgently. They will support you.
I was close to ending my life 2 years ago due to a very bad depressive episode and it made all the difference. Dd 22 at time was a fantastic support and encouraged me to quit my job and claim PIP. I now work part time in a job I love and accept I will always need tablets.
It sounds as if you're very fragile if just a hug can make you cry.
I have been there. Please look after yourself. 
Wolfiefan · 18/10/2018 12:41
The side effect of the anti depressant I’m on is that I can cope with life. I can manage the routine things I need to do. I do some things I enjoy. I don’t feel overwhelmed. I don’t feel like I’m existing at the bottom of a dark hole.
There can be side effects but the right drug can be really helpful. And drugs aren’t the only thing that can help.
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:48
Thankyou I'm going to make a doctors apt.
Do you think I have depression?
Or if it was depression would I be even worse?
Could it be anxiety and depression.
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:49
I just feel so alone and empty.
I want to be happy but I don't know how.
Branleuse · 18/10/2018 12:50
Antidepressants do have side effects but at one point they saved my life. Fuck a few side effects. If they are unliveable with then you can change till you find one that works or you can come off them.when youre in a better place to do so.
Belina · 18/10/2018 12:51
ok so what exactly is your problem? why are you unhappy? do you have children? husband? what is your situation?
its very obvious to suggest a doctor you dont need to be a scientist to write that but i suspect you posted here to find what your issue is and get advice so explain..........
antz345 · 18/10/2018 12:55
I don't have a boyfriend /husband or kids.
No job,I feel so low and sad about all of that.
I can't get any of those things now tho because of my anxiety and all the symptoms my anxiety gives me.
I have accepted il never have a family now and it makes me incredibly sad.
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